Feel Blessed

I have been browsing thru google.com to post n share some thoughts of momentums..but however, i cant find any which suits how im feeling rite now...

First of all, i wanna say that i feel blessed. Blessed in a way that, i have adopted parents. What if im not being adopted, what n how would my life would lead me to?

2nd of all, im blessed cus currently i have great friends who bring cheers n laughters back to my life after many shits have happened to me recently. During that period, i felt like the world is owing me too many, but i was wrong. I should not feel that way instead, i should feel blessed cus i have a chance to taste the bitterness of life n learnt from the lessons in it.

3rd of all, eventho theres no one very close to me is with me rite now, i wil stil feel blessed cus i have my most loving dad who always loved me no matter who im n where im....I remembered the first time he cried when i fainted n he thought i wil never wake up anymore. that droves tears to my eyes too...cus i felt blessed n loved after all.

4th of all, Im blessed cus i have a job..not a..but 2 jobs...why im blessed? cus there r so many ppl jobless out there who are stil trying their ass off getting a job when recession is going bad.

5th of all, the country that im living in is free from volcanos, earth quakes, typhoons.....well, the only disasters that we have is just raining non stop(Season), hot weather(season), HAZE!! of course those nature disaster cannot be compared to the ones which are more terrible than ours. so, i must say that im blessed :)

6th of all, Im blessed that there are 4 failed relationships that i have gone thru. In terms of, it helped me to go thru the moments n faced it couragely eventho it hurts badly until the stage that i wouldnt give myself & others a chance to step into a new relationship. I used to think that being with ur other half is everything that i could wish for. Cus i want to felt loved n love d other as well. its all i ever ask for. But however, i guess rushing into any relationship wont solve anything aint it? so i would just suggest to go with the flow n enjoy every moments together with the one u love. Im blessed by God after all for giving me great ppl around me at the moment. muax!! love u God !!

7th, im blessed cus i have clothes to wear, food to eat, water to drink, educations....unlike those poor children in Cambodia...Africa....they don have anything..not even proper house to stay...

8th, im blessed cus i dunno why m i blogging about this tonite...haha! cus i feel that im really really blessed...eventho there r times i feel that why is my life sooo much in pain n soo much never endless troubles..but recently life is improving...going pretty well settled...so, i guess its just only a blessing in disguise...

Oh well, life is just all about mistakes to learn, lessons to earn aint it? We should be blessed and proud of who we are n our purpose of living. why? cus God created us n gave us life. we should be honoured..so, just live life to the fullest. Cherish & treasure the people whom we love dearly :)

I wanna dedicate the song to GOD up above :)

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I wanna dedicate this song to someone special.

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hmm...i really dunno how to describe my feelings rite now....its quite suffocating for me...i dunno where to release it out n who should i share it with....i guess i would just end up blog it out here..how sad isnt it.. :(

well, how can we have someone who is stil stuck in his/her's past when there's someone present who is there willing to go thru whatever ups & downs for him/her. i just felt very unfair...very neglected...its a feeling of unrighteousness....its sooo not right.....the words that he/she just keep rolling in my mind over & over again....but from my analysis is that, he/she is still stuck in the past...cant let go....what should i do??? should i wait & give it another try? or give him/her some space n time to get hell over their past??? how long does he/she need???? 1 week? 1 month? 1 year? 10 years? its just sooo frustrating n unfair for me!! im feeling so down rite now....

is it sooo hard to be with someone whom u think u can spend ur life with??

im sooo confused....very very confused.....

i guess i will just give him/her more space & time. i wont bug him/her anymore until the day he/she totally & officially accepts me n the day he/she would dare to hold my hand infront of his friends or whatever.

男生有了女朋友后的20个惨状‏, 还蛮好笑的！！！‏

I received the following email from a friend of mine. She translated it for me tho...n its pretty funny!! hope u guys enjoy it.. lol!!

一、没认识你之前我拿奖学金，认识你之后我差点补考。

二、我忍着让别人笑话的耻辱给你洗衣服。

三、一个苹果，都给你吃。两个苹果，我把大的给你吃。

四、同吃一条鱼，我让你吃鱼肉，我自己吃鱼头。

五、你这么难看，我还说你漂亮。我这么帅，你还说我难看。

六、出去玩都是我花钱，回来我只能吃萝卜（你省下钱当然可以自己吃鱼翅了）。

七、认识你之前我没交过女朋友。认识我之前你交了两个男朋友。

八、你生气时，我让你当出气筒。我生气时，我把自己当出气筒。

九、你想吻我的时候就可以吻我。我想吻你的时候还要经过你同意。

十、你经常打我，我从来没有打过你。

十一、有一次你问我如果你爱上别的男人了我会怎样，我说我要杀了那个男的。我又问你如果我爱上了别的女人了你会怎样，你说你要阉了我。

十二、我买了200块的衣服给你，骗你才50块。你买了30块的手表给我，骗我要300块。

十三、我把你的耳机用坏了，我买新的赔你。你把我的自行车丢了，连句对不起也没说。

十四、你生病一次，我要瘦两斤。我生病一次，你反而胖两斤（你来寝室陪我，吃光了我所有的零食。）

十五、我没嫌你矮，你却嫌我高。

十六、你来我家，我睡沙发。我去你家，还是我睡沙发。

十七、那次去看露天演唱会，你骑在我头上看得津津有味，我被你压在下面在人群中流泪。

十八、我家的狗生了，我把最好看的一条送给你。你却把你养得快要死掉的金鱼送给我，害我才养两天就得给它们送终。

十九、我给你洗了N次的袜子，从未给你丢过一只。你只在我生病的时候给我洗了两双袜子，就各丢一只。

二十、我陪你去买东西时我主动帮你提东西，你却从来没问过要不要帮我提东西。~笑过之余..给你做个测试...我发现.看完我帖子的有两种人...

第1种:看完了笑然后转发给5个人以上的人.......这种人,爱情顺利,事业顺心,家庭和睦,福如东海.寿比南山,一生开心~当然了。.这种人也都宽宏大量....?

第2种:看完了笑然后不转发的人..... 这种人，爱情失败，事业离去，倾家荡产，常常赔了夫人又折兵，处处没用~当然咯。。这种人一定是吝啬鬼。。。。

another moody nite

Can anyone tell me how to cure this feeling im feeling rite now?!?!?! i dunno why i have this kinda feeling....it feels terrible....can it be saved??? its like a feeling of being somewhat dump...felt rejected....felt why time pass sooo slow when i want this progress to be asap!! Im soooo bloody weak in heart!! wtf !!! what m i afraid of?!?!?! aarrrgghhh!!! sooo fuck up!!!!

don ask me why..i have no idea either y my face look

so shit early in the morning to work... -.-""

Zodiac: Cancer

Cancer Man & Woman
June 22 TO July 22
Slogan: I Feel, therefore I am.

PERSONAL RELATIONSHIPS:

Fundamentally, The Cancer man is a one-woman man and very romantic but, he is generally unaware of his own attractiveness so it's advisable to constantly boost his ego.
In his relationships the Cancer man is very private, personal, cosy, loving, gentle, and exceedingly intimate. Once this man has given his heart then his commitment to the relationship tends to be total.

The Cancer man has a deep inner world, a world filled with considerable compassion and under standing. In order to become part of that inner world one has to prove one’s trustworthiness.
Unlike some other signs the Cancer man may well readily accept you into his sphere of life however, should you betray or let him down then he is unlikely to ever completely forget or forgive your actions. A Cancer man tends to hold on to things, feelings, and people.
The Cancer man is a very faithful and giving lover, however at times he can become quite irrational and moody and on these occasions the best course of action is to let him be alone until such mood swings pass.

The Cancer man while generally being a kind man should not be confused as being soft.

The Cancer man inherently knows what will make another person happy so just allow him the time and the space to bestow his gifts to you.

His sense of humour and outlook tends to appeal to women but he will often project acts of sociability to conceal his feelings of insecurity.

The Cancer man can be an excellent and amusing companion but, being somewhat difficult to pin down, and, it can take time to really get to know him.

Most partners find that Cancer men have considerable sex appeal however there are times when he should be left alone especially when he is dealing with problems.

Flattery doesn't work with the Cancer man unless he detects a genuine intent behind it. He can be deeply hurt, so any form of thoughtless criticism should be restrained.

Cancer men are generally, courteous, kind and considerate. They tend to dress conservatively but hate to stand out in a crowd. He is highly protective of both himself and his family and, although generally peaceful by nature he possesses powerful emotional drives that can arise where his family becomes threatened.

The Cancer man makes for a gentle, caring, sympathetic and understanding father, projecting exceptional patience, pride and protection toward his children.

Cancer is the sign that is most closely linked with the home and the family and, in particular, it holds a strong association with one’s mother.

By their nature most Cancer’s retain a very powerful link to their past so, if there were profound hurts during their childhood resulting from a mother-child relationship that may not have been particularly close or nurturing, then the Cancer can mature into a somewhat needy individual emotionally.

Alternatively, if their former stages of life are healthy, happy and well founded, then there is every likelihood that the Cancer boy will mature into an emotionally healthy and stable individual.

Once healed from any earlier life unhappy or painful experiences, the Cancer man can become a superb provider of support and emotional strength to all and everyone around him.

The Cancer man is a born collector. He has quite a nostalgic and sentimental personality with a strong memory that never forgets. As example he will retain memories from his distant past; the smell of his mothers favourite perfume or first ball game with his father and; it’s unlikely that he will ever forget a face.

The home is the centre of the Cancer man’s life and his family and children are the very centre of his cares and concerns. When you become a close friend to the Cancer man he will look upon and you and treat you as one of the family. Alternatively, hurt or offend him and you could be viewed as an enemy.

MONEY & FINANCES:

The Cancer man will tend to hoard and take care with his money. His principal concern centres upon security and, as result he is more than likely to very careful and somewhat tight-fisted when it comes to his financial resources.

On a non-monetary plane, the Cancer man will be quite generous; need some clothes, the use of a car, a home to call your own for a while—no problem!

The Cancer man favours conservative mutual funds or real estate as the most comfortable ways to invest and, while he might live somewhat frugally he can always be counted upon to have a quite nest egg put aside “just in case.”

The Cancer male has a strong appreciation of beautiful and artistic things and, as result; some highly talented artists, musicians, and other professional people have been born under this Sign.
With a considerable literary ability, Cancer folk often make excellent lawyers, judges, doctors, and entertaining speakers. Some of the finest scholars and, some of the world's wealthiest men have been born under the sign of Cancer.

Suitable Vocations for Cancer that utilize their teaching and helping qualities:
Hospitality Industry, Education, Protection, Medical, Pharmaceutical, Archaeology, Agricultural, Chef-Catering, Doctor, Dietician, Entertainer, Farming, Market Gardening, Hotel Personnel, Historian, Kindergarten, Lifeguard, Manufacturing, Nursing, Oceanographer, Property Admin, Shop Retailer, Teaching.

I just wanna add in this : "Love is always patient and kind. It is never jealous. Love is never boastful or conceited. It is never rude or selfish. It does not take offense and is not resentful."

Cant be too bothered

In these past coming 2 months, things has changed my life drastically. In terms of friends, activities, myself & guys.

Friends: found my own self circle of friends where i can get to go outing more often by not cooking up myself in the room sober n sulking about how bad my life was. Instead, i will just spend most of my time thinking of where to go and what to do next in my life. my colleague was like telling me that i wouldnt wanna think of the problem infront of me but instead spend my time thinking what fun should i do next. LOL~~ what a compliment girl.. :P

Activities: well, its more to heading to the clubs recently, photo shootings, drinking sessions....

Myself : moving forward with life. LOVE myself more n giving myself a chance to be loved n love & most of all, respect myself more!!

GUYS: too much attention from them! 2 bouquets of flowers from some stranger that says "admirer" well, i cant be too bothered about it tho. cus, i don entertain some stupid, horny strangers tho. so yeah, 2 words " FUCK OFF " :)

hmm.....what else? oh yeah, finally, i found this song that i have been searching for quite some time cus i cant remember the title of the song's name? :P enjoy as much as i do..cus its very meaningful...n i dedicate this song to Vin Lim :)

Are you that kinda guy that im looking for ????