A Girl who just wants to be loved

Feel Blessed

2009-09-03T21:21:00.003+08:00

I have been browsing thru google.com to post n share some thoughts of momentums..but however, i cant find any which suits how im feeling rite now...

First of all, i wanna say that i feel blessed. Blessed in a way that, i have adopted parents. What if im not being adopted, what n how would my life would lead me to?

2nd of all, im blessed cus currently i have great friends who bring cheers n laughters back to my life after many shits have happened to me recently. During that period, i felt like the world is owing me too many, but i was wrong. I should not feel that way instead, i should feel blessed cus i have a chance to taste the bitterness of life n learnt from the lessons in it.

3rd of all, eventho theres no one very close to me is with me rite now, i wil stil feel blessed cus i have my most loving dad who always loved me no matter who im n where im....I remembered the first time he cried when i fainted n he thought i wil never wake up anymore. that droves tears to my eyes too...cus i felt blessed n loved after all.

4th of all, Im blessed cus i have a job..not a..but 2 jobs...why im blessed? cus there r so many ppl jobless out there who are stil trying their ass off getting a job when recession is going bad.

5th of all, the country that im living in is free from volcanos, earth quakes, typhoons.....well, the only disasters that we have is just raining non stop(Season), hot weather(season), HAZE!! of course those nature disaster cannot be compared to the ones which are more terrible than ours. so, i must say that im blessed :)

6th of all, Im blessed that there are 4 failed relationships that i have gone thru. In terms of, it helped me to go thru the moments n faced it couragely eventho it hurts badly until the stage that i wouldnt give myself & others a chance to step into a new relationship. I used to think that being with ur other half is everything that i could wish for. Cus i want to felt loved n love d other as well. its all i ever ask for. But however, i guess rushing into any relationship wont solve anything aint it? so i would just suggest to go with the flow n enjoy every moments together with the one u love. Im blessed by God after all for giving me great ppl around me at the moment. muax!! love u God !!

7th, im blessed cus i have clothes to wear, food to eat, water to drink, educations....unlike those poor children in Cambodia...Africa....they don have anything..not even proper house to stay...

8th, im blessed cus i dunno why m i blogging about this tonite...haha! cus i feel that im really really blessed...eventho there r times i feel that why is my life sooo much in pain n soo much never endless troubles..but recently life is improving...going pretty well settled...so, i guess its just only a blessing in disguise...

Oh well, life is just all about mistakes to learn, lessons to earn aint it? We should be blessed and proud of who we are n our purpose of living. why? cus God created us n gave us life. we should be honoured..so, just live life to the fullest. Cherish & treasure the people whom we love dearly :)

I wanna dedicate the song to GOD up above :)

Random

2009-09-01T20:01:00.002+08:00

I wanna dedicate this song to someone special.

confused

2009-08-31T23:17:00.003+08:00

hmm...i really dunno how to describe my feelings rite now....its quite suffocating for me...i dunno where to release it out n who should i share it with....i guess i would just end up blog it out here..how sad isnt it.. :(

well, how can we have someone who is stil stuck in his/her's past when there's someone present who is there willing to go thru whatever ups & downs for him/her. i just felt very unfair...very neglected...its a feeling of unrighteousness....its sooo not right.....the words that he/she just keep rolling in my mind over & over again....but from my analysis is that, he/she is still stuck in the past...cant let go....what should i do??? should i wait & give it another try? or give him/her some space n time to get hell over their past??? how long does he/she need???? 1 week? 1 month? 1 year? 10 years? its just sooo frustrating n unfair for me!! im feeling so down rite now....

is it sooo hard to be with someone whom u think u can spend ur life with??

im sooo confused....very very confused.....

i guess i will just give him/her more space & time. i wont bug him/her anymore until the day he/she totally & officially accepts me n the day he/she would dare to hold my hand infront of his friends or whatever.

男生有了女朋友后的20个惨状‏, 还蛮好笑的！！！‏

2009-08-29T18:37:00.002+08:00

I received the following email from a friend of mine. She translated it for me tho...n its pretty funny!! hope u guys enjoy it.. lol!!

一、没认识你之前我拿奖学金，认识你之后我差点补考。

二、我忍着让别人笑话的耻辱给你洗衣服。

三、一个苹果，都给你吃。两个苹果，我把大的给你吃。

四、同吃一条鱼，我让你吃鱼肉，我自己吃鱼头。

五、你这么难看，我还说你漂亮。我这么帅，你还说我难看。

六、出去玩都是我花钱，回来我只能吃萝卜（你省下钱当然可以自己吃鱼翅了）。

七、认识你之前我没交过女朋友。认识我之前你交了两个男朋友。

八、你生气时，我让你当出气筒。我生气时，我把自己当出气筒。

九、你想吻我的时候就可以吻我。我想吻你的时候还要经过你同意。

十、你经常打我，我从来没有打过你。

十一、有一次你问我如果你爱上别的男人了我会怎样，我说我要杀了那个男的。我又问你如果我爱上了别的女人了你会怎样，你说你要阉了我。

十二、我买了200块的衣服给你，骗你才50块。你买了30块的手表给我，骗我要300块。

十三、我把你的耳机用坏了，我买新的赔你。你把我的自行车丢了，连句对不起也没说。

十四、你生病一次，我要瘦两斤。我生病一次，你反而胖两斤（你来寝室陪我，吃光了我所有的零食。）

十五、我没嫌你矮，你却嫌我高。

十六、你来我家，我睡沙发。我去你家，还是我睡沙发。

十七、那次去看露天演唱会，你骑在我头上看得津津有味，我被你压在下面在人群中流泪。

十八、我家的狗生了，我把最好看的一条送给你。你却把你养得快要死掉的金鱼送给我，害我才养两天就得给它们送终。

十九、我给你洗了N次的袜子，从未给你丢过一只。你只在我生病的时候给我洗了两双袜子，就各丢一只。

二十、我陪你去买东西时我主动帮你提东西，你却从来没问过要不要帮我提东西。~笑过之余..给你做个测试...我发现.看完我帖子的有两种人...

第1种:看完了笑然后转发给5个人以上的人.......这种人,爱情顺利,事业顺心,家庭和睦,福如东海.寿比南山,一生开心~当然了。.这种人也都宽宏大量....?

第2种:看完了笑然后不转发的人..... 这种人，爱情失败，事业离去，倾家荡产，常常赔了夫人又折兵，处处没用~当然咯。。这种人一定是吝啬鬼。。。。

another moody nite

2009-08-27T21:48:00.007+08:00

Can anyone tell me how to cure this feeling im feeling rite now?!?!?! i dunno why i have this kinda feeling....it feels terrible....can it be saved??? its like a feeling of being somewhat dump...felt rejected....felt why time pass sooo slow when i want this progress to be asap!! Im soooo bloody weak in heart!! wtf !!! what m i afraid of?!?!?! aarrrgghhh!!! sooo fuck up!!!!

don ask me why..i have no idea either y my face look

so shit early in the morning to work... -.-""

Zodiac: Cancer

2009-08-27T20:03:00.005+08:00

Cancer Man & Woman
June 22 TO July 22
Slogan: I Feel, therefore I am.

PERSONAL RELATIONSHIPS:

Fundamentally, The Cancer man is a one-woman man and very romantic but, he is generally unaware of his own attractiveness so it's advisable to constantly boost his ego.
In his relationships the Cancer man is very private, personal, cosy, loving, gentle, and exceedingly intimate. Once this man has given his heart then his commitment to the relationship tends to be total.

The Cancer man has a deep inner world, a world filled with considerable compassion and under standing. In order to become part of that inner world one has to prove one’s trustworthiness.
Unlike some other signs the Cancer man may well readily accept you into his sphere of life however, should you betray or let him down then he is unlikely to ever completely forget or forgive your actions. A Cancer man tends to hold on to things, feelings, and people.
The Cancer man is a very faithful and giving lover, however at times he can become quite irrational and moody and on these occasions the best course of action is to let him be alone until such mood swings pass.

The Cancer man while generally being a kind man should not be confused as being soft.

The Cancer man inherently knows what will make another person happy so just allow him the time and the space to bestow his gifts to you.

His sense of humour and outlook tends to appeal to women but he will often project acts of sociability to conceal his feelings of insecurity.

The Cancer man can be an excellent and amusing companion but, being somewhat difficult to pin down, and, it can take time to really get to know him.

Most partners find that Cancer men have considerable sex appeal however there are times when he should be left alone especially when he is dealing with problems.

Flattery doesn't work with the Cancer man unless he detects a genuine intent behind it. He can be deeply hurt, so any form of thoughtless criticism should be restrained.

Cancer men are generally, courteous, kind and considerate. They tend to dress conservatively but hate to stand out in a crowd. He is highly protective of both himself and his family and, although generally peaceful by nature he possesses powerful emotional drives that can arise where his family becomes threatened.

The Cancer man makes for a gentle, caring, sympathetic and understanding father, projecting exceptional patience, pride and protection toward his children.

Cancer is the sign that is most closely linked with the home and the family and, in particular, it holds a strong association with one’s mother.

By their nature most Cancer’s retain a very powerful link to their past so, if there were profound hurts during their childhood resulting from a mother-child relationship that may not have been particularly close or nurturing, then the Cancer can mature into a somewhat needy individual emotionally.

Alternatively, if their former stages of life are healthy, happy and well founded, then there is every likelihood that the Cancer boy will mature into an emotionally healthy and stable individual.

Once healed from any earlier life unhappy or painful experiences, the Cancer man can become a superb provider of support and emotional strength to all and everyone around him.

The Cancer man is a born collector. He has quite a nostalgic and sentimental personality with a strong memory that never forgets. As example he will retain memories from his distant past; the smell of his mothers favourite perfume or first ball game with his father and; it’s unlikely that he will ever forget a face.

The home is the centre of the Cancer man’s life and his family and children are the very centre of his cares and concerns. When you become a close friend to the Cancer man he will look upon and you and treat you as one of the family. Alternatively, hurt or offend him and you could be viewed as an enemy.

MONEY & FINANCES:

The Cancer man will tend to hoard and take care with his money. His principal concern centres upon security and, as result he is more than likely to very careful and somewhat tight-fisted when it comes to his financial resources.

On a non-monetary plane, the Cancer man will be quite generous; need some clothes, the use of a car, a home to call your own for a while—no problem!

The Cancer man favours conservative mutual funds or real estate as the most comfortable ways to invest and, while he might live somewhat frugally he can always be counted upon to have a quite nest egg put aside “just in case.”

The Cancer male has a strong appreciation of beautiful and artistic things and, as result; some highly talented artists, musicians, and other professional people have been born under this Sign.
With a considerable literary ability, Cancer folk often make excellent lawyers, judges, doctors, and entertaining speakers. Some of the finest scholars and, some of the world's wealthiest men have been born under the sign of Cancer.

Suitable Vocations for Cancer that utilize their teaching and helping qualities:
Hospitality Industry, Education, Protection, Medical, Pharmaceutical, Archaeology, Agricultural, Chef-Catering, Doctor, Dietician, Entertainer, Farming, Market Gardening, Hotel Personnel, Historian, Kindergarten, Lifeguard, Manufacturing, Nursing, Oceanographer, Property Admin, Shop Retailer, Teaching.

I just wanna add in this : "Love is always patient and kind. It is never jealous. Love is never boastful or conceited. It is never rude or selfish. It does not take offense and is not resentful."

Cant be too bothered

2009-08-24T22:31:00.005+08:00

In these past coming 2 months, things has changed my life drastically. In terms of friends, activities, myself & guys.

Friends: found my own self circle of friends where i can get to go outing more often by not cooking up myself in the room sober n sulking about how bad my life was. Instead, i will just spend most of my time thinking of where to go and what to do next in my life. my colleague was like telling me that i wouldnt wanna think of the problem infront of me but instead spend my time thinking what fun should i do next. LOL~~ what a compliment girl.. :P

Activities: well, its more to heading to the clubs recently, photo shootings, drinking sessions....

Myself : moving forward with life. LOVE myself more n giving myself a chance to be loved n love & most of all, respect myself more!!

GUYS: too much attention from them! 2 bouquets of flowers from some stranger that says "admirer" well, i cant be too bothered about it tho. cus, i don entertain some stupid, horny strangers tho. so yeah, 2 words " FUCK OFF " :)

hmm.....what else? oh yeah, finally, i found this song that i have been searching for quite some time cus i cant remember the title of the song's name? :P enjoy as much as i do..cus its very meaningful...n i dedicate this song to Vin Lim :)

Are you that kinda guy that im looking for ????

UPDATES!!!

2009-08-20T19:39:00.005+08:00

GAWD!!! Its been ages i have not updated anything yet. Well, there are a lot of things happened n changed for the past 1 month plus coming to 2 tho. First of all, broke up on 7th july 2009 which it was 2 days before my birthday. I felt relieved, i dunno why...felt like i have been dragging on the relationship where i myself knows that it goes nowhere n giving on false hope myself. I guess i have wasted too much time on pathethic loser like him. who cares anyway, i can say whatever i want in my blog right now. I wil no longer fear him controlling me on what not to write in here. FUCK U PIECE OF SHIET!!! :)

anyways, 2ndly, i found a new place to stay eventho its a small place which filled with 2 other girls here which are 3-4 years younger than me. im simply happy & sad at the same time cus i dunno why..i just simply do :)

AND! i have been under depression for almost a month cus shit things happened to me at one go...n one of it is that my close cousin back home passed away so suddenly which is quite a shocking to all of us...he passed away in Germany when he was having his Germany course there furthermore, he is only same age as mine!! i really cannot take it... So, this past 3 weeks, i have been heading to the clubs every Saturday tho with my new found friends. I just simply filled so freeeeeee n happyyyyyy & SADDDDDDD.

Starting from August onwards, i have been juggling 2 jobs its pretty tiring for me tho cus its raining here almost everyday and i gotta walk all the way to work. Had been falling sick ever since. Fever.....lost my voice.....tired....bodyache...don worry, its aint H1N1.. :)

last Saturday, i had my first photoshoot with my colleague, Joey, since its her birthday that day, i just cant help thinking what to get for her...so, since we both never have a good photoshoot before, i just invited her n my photographer friends to snap photos for us by the streets. After shootings, we then head to the club! Below is the link to the photos: -

Night Portrait: 15-8-2009 (i only manage to upload a few. wil continue more when i received more from d other photographers)

Simply enough, my god daddy D in UK has been helping me alot emotionally and financially to sort things out. I really couldnt have done it without him. I really really appreciate alot for what he has done for me. I promise to pay him a visit once my transition is over n stable. alrite D?

I guess, i will keep updating my blog every now n then since im soooo god damn free...
thats all i gotta say rite now..im soooo sleeepy n its only 7:53PM....

Short Quiz

2009-06-04T16:18:00.003+08:00

Yesterday after work, i was out with my friends at SegaFredo....n my friend asked me a dupest question which i cant even answer either of it...n my answer simply came out the most stupidest of all....So, below is the question n see how u guys can answer me...

1) What is the question that the answer is always a YES?
:: so far there are 2 answers to this question
:: my answer was : " DO U PEE???" (dumb or not this question..wtf...but thats not d answer..so guess again)

2) Who or What kind of person that is always in a RUSH?
:: the answer to this question is very crap. so, just give it a try...
:: my answer was my bf's name..they asked me why...cus he is aggressive n impatient :)

Too Random

2009-06-03T14:59:00.010+08:00

My bf has been saying that i din update my blog for so long. cus i have been a very lazy pig when it comes to blogging nowadays. so, below are some photos which took place like 1 month plus ago. haha!

Happy Birthday Sandy

Uncle Julius acting cute.

~~~Make a wish~~~

from left: Bf, Fucky nerd, Claudius, Claudius gf...etc...

First attempt cutting the ice cream cake after taken out from the freezer.

still trying...

yes...every1 is happy n satisfied then go home...

Next below photos are taken from bf's new shop.

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Paramount

Bf's biker friends...

thanks for the support....

fucky guy standing near the door.

spoil front door fengshui....shoooo.....

Claudius can play too...don play play...

my bf being the concerto instructor...

n this is me....colleague took this photo yesterday....

im trying to have my lunch please....

爱一人

如果你不爱一个人,

请放手.

好让别人有机会爱她.

如果你爱的人放弃了你,

请放开自己,

好让自己有机会爱别人.

有的东西你再喜欢也不会属于你的,

有的东西你再留恋也注定要放弃的.

人生中有许多种 .

但别让自己为一种伤害.

有些缘分是注定要失去的,

有些缘分是永远都不会有好结果的,

爱一个人不一定要拥有,

但拥有一个人就一定要好好的去爱她.

男人哭了是因为他真的爱了.

女人哭了是因为她真的放弃了.

如果真诚是一种伤害,

我选择谎言;

如果谎言一种伤害,

我选择沉默;

如果沉默是一种伤害,

我选择离开.

如果失去是苦，

你怕不怕付出 ,

如果迷乱是苦，

你会不会选择结束,

如果追求是苦，

你会不会选择执迷不悟 ,

如果分离是苦，

你要向谁倾诉,

好多事情都是后来才看清楚,

好多事情当时一点也不觉得苦!!!!

***爱&缘分***

１.她無聊時陪她〃

２.她難過時安慰她〃

３.男生要主動點〃

４.多約女友出去〃

５.不能讓女友主動約〃

６.讓她每天都開心愉快〃

７.要好好對待女友〃

８.順從女友的意〃

９.不要讓她傷心難過〃

１０.當她被欺負要立刻去保護她〃

１１.不要隱瞞女友事情〃

１２.不能背叛女友〃

傳給零個人，你永遠單身。

傳給15個人，你喜歡人會來跟你搭訕。

傳給30個人，你喜歡人會主動對你提出交往。

傳給40個人，你喜歡人會主動吻你！！！

(eventho i don quite understand some of the wordings above...but my friend said that its a nice to thing to share with everyone out there....)

HAVE A NICE DAY EVERYONE!!!!!!!!

BLEH

2009-05-21T10:53:00.002+08:00

GRAAAHHHHHH !!!! so paiseh...have been neglecting in blogging again...cus im being super duper busy with my work scopes....tomoro i will TRY to blog again. ha!

whatever

2009-04-19T11:57:00.002+08:00

what a trencherous weekend...plus the heating hot weather....hmmm..........oh well, this post is mainly for my biatchy cousin, Sarah who is currently in Vienna...i know ur reading this girl....do u mind to help me to solve out my aussie issue please??? wheres ur mum??? i cant seem to get thru her....her number is out of reach...

better get back to me asap!!! or else u know what is going to happen to me...

feeling so geezy right now....

Simplylicious

2009-04-02T13:45:00.005+08:00

Been busy with my stuff tho....so, below are some pictures for all fellow humanoids....

yes...thats me n my partner, Hui Hui

was having migraine...

playing 2nd pieces....estimated 15 mins playing high climax..

was looking for the damn pedal..

left: Me / Right : Hui Hui

at G-Spot ready ourself for some performance with Germany singer.

friend bought new bike...

at G-Spot rehearsing the song for night event

Manage to shot this photo. This fugly cop practically stop every vehicle that he sees...its like..helloo....this is not a main road ok...what the futch!! conclusion is, I HATE COPS!

Letter Of Confession

2009-03-25T11:18:00.007+08:00

To my dearest boyfriend,

Lately i have done alot of thinking..over n over again..i admit that i have been quite stubborn and not listening to u. There are millions of words i would want to express it out to u, but u wouldnt let me. But, i really don know why things turn out so sour until u wouldnt even want to talk to me anymore. I recalled alot of our ups and downs, during our down times, we get along quite fast. But i don know why this time its different.

I missed u alot..really alot..im screaming with tears inside...eventho we r under one roof, i miss u like million years...i really cant control this...i tried to avoid that feeling by doing my work, but the fact is there, missing fact...i cant help myself thinking of the moments we used to share together....smiling and happy....i really hope that we could give ourself another chance...

In my previous previous post...i was just only expressing out my feelings..cus i don know where n how to let it out....im lost....if u ever felt the pinch there, please don be...im not doing that just to get sympathy from others, cus i was just letting out my chest. please understand....I want to apologise to u my dear....i don know why it seems so hard to say that infront of u..i felt very difficult.....

Remember this was our First photo?

I cant continue anymore....

have a nice day everyone....

HAHA!! SHIT!!

2009-03-24T12:59:00.001+08:00

OH MY GOD !!! ALMOST FORGOT THIS SUNDAY IS LITTLE PENANG MARKET PERFORMANCE DAY!!! OH MY GOD!!! having some migraine lately...damn!!!

i need to go for some practise now...bye peeps!

im an orphan

2009-03-23T14:05:00.004+08:00

i don know what to say in here anymore. im not in the mood of blogging as well. im being a saddist. empty stoned. whatever that links to my current mood. whatever. however.whatsoever.somhoworrather. im a hoe. a hog. im ugly. call whatever u guys want. im numb already. nobody wants me anymore. im an orphan. yeah. my dad don want me. my mum don want me. nobody. im being attacked that way which really really REALLY hurts. i don know how to describe this feeling. i felt like broken into millions of pieces which might take ages to heal the scar that has been caused severely.

i feel so suck right now.

BYE WORLD.

p/s: dad...please wait for me. im coming.

Malaysians Culture

2009-03-03T15:37:00.002+08:00

In my previous post , i promised to upload some photos of me with my dad n bro during a short trip to KL tho. So, here it is..sorry lah..my dad only emailed me 1 photo.

What Makes A Malaysian A Malaysian?

1. A typical young Malaysian can name all the players from a top English Premier League club, but ask him to name one football player from Malaysia, he cannot!

2. When StreamyX come, you complain StreamyX too slow. When Maxis Broadband come, you complain Maxis Broadband always disconnects. When WiMax come, you complain Wimax too expensive. In the end, you say StreamyX still the best lah.

3. When highway toll price increase, you complain. When petrol price increase, you complain. When you go Starbucks buy RM10 coffee, NO COMPLAINTS.

4. When you cannot find parking in a shopping mall and have to walk very far, you complain. When you go inside the shopping mall and there's SALE, run from one end of 1Utama to the other, that one NO COMPLAINT.

5. You are always late. And the excuse you give when you're late is always either: (a) traffic jam (b) no transport or (c) cannot find parking.

6. You have a parent who forces you to take science stream in high school, study engineering in Uni, then when you graduate, they ask you to forget everything you learnt in Uni and do commerce..

7. You know someone who can specially develop an angmoh accent when speaking to an American / British / Australian.

8. You complain against the government in kopitiam, you talk loud loud. Leave anonymous comments on blogs, you also talk loud loud. Attend ceremah by DAP, you shout loud loud. Then when Opposition organise a protest and ask you to go, you dun wan. Scared later kena tangkap by ISA.

9. Every year on the 30th April, you are one of the people below queuing up last minute to submit your tax return at the IRB.

10. When you pay RM10 for something that costs RM1, you blame the Chinese.

11. When a government service is too slow, you blame the Malays.

12. When a building is not good and collapsed, you blame the Indians..

13. When a Chinese student won a scholarship, you say 'Wah! Very clever hor?' When a Malay student won a scholarship, you say 'Aiya! Of course lah! He Malay mah!'

14. When an angmoh stranger kisses you on the cheek to say hello, you very happy. When a Malaysian guy kisses you on the cheek to say hello, you slap him in face.

Something to be aware of.

2009-03-02T12:52:00.005+08:00

Hello guys....for those of u who knows how to read chinese, go ahead n read below....for those of u who r unable to read, don fret...i will TRY tuh explain it in the next posts..haha!!

My hometown friend who is now located in Singapore, she knows my frustration lately...n tries to explain to me in how to be considerate to my other half sometimes....n the words below really make sense but eventho i don really know how to read, she took her time to call me n explain it to me. I really appreciate what she did for me. So, in order not to be selfish, i will share it out to u guys....for girls, please read n understand the meaning....I will TRY my best to change where i should change.... :)

女孩应该原谅男孩的10个地方

1 如果你喜欢他就告诉他，即使他拒绝了，也不会丢面子，因为在他心里，会因为你的真情而非常非常感激你。

2 如果他喜欢你，要明确告诉他你对他的感情，喜欢就是喜欢，不喜欢就是不喜欢，千万不要怕伤害他而忧郁不决，不要让他等到最后才受到抛弃，因为男孩子的心一旦碎了就很难很难再好起来。

3 男孩子也有自己的脾气，只是因为爱你而压抑着，不要总是任性，有时他们的决定也很有道理.

4 男孩子莫名的向你发脾气，那时因为爱你，把你当成最亲，最贴心，最有安全感的人，千万不要冲他发脾气反击，静静的等着，等他消气后满怀后悔来抱你。

5 他为你准备的东西，即使再难看，再廉价，也要去珍惜，因为那里面融汇着他整晚的思绪。

6 相信他给你多么多么美好的生活，要给他鼓励，因为鼓励会让他创造奇迹。

7 不要总是打探他去哪，告诉他注意安全，你会等着他就可以。

8 不要总说~我爱你~，他会半真半笑着说你烦，但不要不说，因为有时候，他们比女孩子更需要这句。

9 他为你掉眼泪了，那么他是真的非常爱你，珍惜他的每一滴泪，不要道歉，不要安慰，握着他的手，默默的为他擦去泪滴。

10 要信任他，他爱你，就什么都不会骗你，即使真的有欺骗，也是为让你们的爱情能够永远不离不弃。

看见了吗？？？
要牢牢记住这十句话！！！
那。。。你也不能自私。。。

p/s: well, i know its pretty meaningless posting post, cus i was suppose to be uploading photos, but, i didnt bring my HDD with me so, pointless tho..so today i posted something meaningful but yet pointless. get me? haha.. cheer peeps :)

Happy but PISS!

2009-02-24T13:16:00.003+08:00

Back blogging after some decades. haha! Its been quite happening for me lately. Last 2 weeks ago, me n my boyfriend, Henry, drove down to KL to meet up my dad n bro cus my bro is located in Cyberjaya for his studies in Lim Kok Wing which the Uni was damn wicked big. My dear has been helping a lot for my family by driving my dad n bro around when they needed a lift. The place that my bro stayed is super duper far away from town which is quite frustrating n inconvinient to move about when they wanted to. I will upload some photos of the short trip on my next post cus the photos in my dad's camera are way much better whereas i look super sucky in my own camera :)

Anyways, i have not been not quite a happy person these few weeks or prolly month(s)? I dunno...i lost track of everything. I felt like im someone else. Someone better? or someone who is lost?

Just last week on Saturday, i went for my IELTS english test which went pretty well for most section but except for the essay part which i despise a lot. Well, results will be out on the 6th of March tho. So, wish me all the best! I cant afford to fail this exam cus its too expensive furthermore, im not the one who pays for it, its my boyfriend. So, this pressure i gotta handle it.

Next, photos are below where i find it quite amusing how Malaysians especially only ONE KIND OF RACE will do such thing about it. See below :

Isnt that creative?

This wil be first warning, so, in order to protect ur intergrity, i will picturesquare ur plate number. If next time same thing happens...u know what i will do :)
I don quite understand human sometimes.

There's huge lot of parking space for IT to go in. But WHY IN THE MIDDLE OF THE FUCKING ROAD where other ppl cant even drive thru. what a SELFISH SCHMUCK!!!

I gotta 'applecised' the plate number cus don wanna violate their own privacy life. But what the hell, do u have to tell the whole world?

Im speechless...Its really too fascinating...

Anyhow, I found back my passion in music where i get the chance to teach & perform in public. Not only for me, but also my students. Im honestly happy right now when i think about what happen yesterday...now im all smiles... hahaha! damn!!
My interview session yesterday took me like almost 3 hours by speaking to Mr. Wilson Quah, the Managing Director of music faculty who used to be in New York City for quite some time. You guys can google up his name. Its all over the internet. My mentor will be a japanese lady by the name of...errr...cant remember...I was told by Mr. Wilson that i will be given a chance to perform with him internationally when i have what it takes to be in the role. Damn! Another pressure. which is a good thing tho. Not a bad one :)

You guys will be thinking that, whats so happy about this shit? U guys dunno how it feels man....When u have studied Performance in Music at d age of 7 until now, and u cant find a right path in this damn country, its really really...i mean REALLYYYYY frustrating u know and somehow u dunno what u should do in ur life. Well, now i have found the right person and right place and the right chance, i should treasure it well. I need to dedicate this chance to my friend's cousin who is related to Mr. Wilson and I too want to thank Mr. Wilson Quah for giving me a big fat chance to get into ur Areca Center Of Performing Arts!

There will be a Gig happening in G-Hotel, Penang this Sunday by Areca's Performers in Jazz. Its a monthly performance tho. I might or might not be there :)

Thats all for today. Tata!!

Chinese New Year?

2009-02-10T12:42:00.004+08:00

GOSSHHHH !!! i have not blog since the last upsetting moments. well, i was pretty busy with Chinese New Year and stuff tho so, no time to blog or more to say i CANT BE ARSE to blog =)

Anways, Chinese New Year was awesome back in my darling's hometown. Why is that so? well and foremost :-

1) Collected many many angpaos(red packets)
2) Won a cuppa bucks from gambling (eventho im a noob in gamble)
3) meet new peeps
4) See fireworks (whats so awesome abt that? haha! doesnt matter tho)
5) Ate too much
6) Awesome thing is that, my weight still maintain. haha!
7) *thinking*
8) *thinking harder*
9) thats all i can recall for now.

So! Last week, i got myself into a damn job which involves as an english and music kindy teacher for age 2-6. First day(Monday) was a hectic day for me as i began to have migrain due to the 70 over kids in a semi-D house. The shoutings, crying, laughing, running here n there and the lists go on...it was tough, i never knew that it was a tough job. On the 4th day, i felt ill and took half day off to see doctor, and found out that i have fallen into a fever n flu virus. haha..what a doop...So, my boyfriend was telling me that, no need to go the next day because he wants me to stay home n rest more...how nice isnt he? So, i decided to work til the last day on Saturday which only lasted for a week as a kindy teacher.

Other than that, received a call from a music school to ask on my reply whether to accept their offer or not. I didnt accept it. want to know why?

1) Work 7 days.
2) Part time.( u wil be thinking part time only what. why not?)
3) Part time hours : weekdays: 9am-6pm: weekends: night time only (want me to die is it? diuuuu...)
4) Salary is not to my expectations

Whatsoever, i received another call from an anonymous number who asked me to attend an interview this Thursday. This job is kinda exciting for me as its a WORK-FROM-HOME job its a US company base whereby it only requires internet and phone to access to clients. As for my dear, he is working pretty well and happy for him for all the results he has shown. looking forward to this.

TOO FAST to be FURIOUS!!!

2009-01-20T14:20:00.002+08:00

Its been long i have not updated my blog due to a mix complexity of feelings these few months towards what is going on with my life.
I don know whether to be angry, sad, upset, frust, depress, stress, happy, cheerful..and the list goes on endlessly like a life cycle.

First of all, my dad or reality call it my step-dad, he seems to be another man that i used to know. From my point of view and feelings that, i felt being dump away and he is not helping me when i need him to help me to re-apply my australia PR. Not only that, he seems to be avoiding me by not on-ing his phone, not replying my smses. When managed to call thru, he just scolded me away not in giving me an advice on how to solve my problem furthermore saying this which is totally unrelated to my problems and complaining about me blogging about him(which i deleted off ages ago already) I did that is to purposely let him know what is going on and understand what i need from him. But i gotta face it, its all mere false wish. Is this what dad is for???? my answer is: i don know. this is all i can say. let u guys be the judge. btw, should i change my blog's link so that my ALMIGHTY dad wont go wank up cus of what i said here.

Secondly, me n my bf is having some emotional breakdown or more to say our relationship is on FIRE!! cus i didnt get to solve my things fast & dragging his precious life as well. My bf wants to go back to aussie ASAP for better future for us if thats the sort. But, im unable to do so ASAP cus of my problem.Read first paragraph if u don know whats my problem is all about. And we too argued on my family issues. He wants me to understand that , my dad is already an old coconut who doesnt know how to judge things and make decisions anymore and my argument to him is that, HE wants me to listen AND accept his point of view. YES. i am listening. BUT accept??? i don know. i think its hard for me. My readers, please give me some advice. I mean it.

Thirdly, about marriage, i only told my dad that we are only planning for future. But instead he took it as if we are getting married in few months time. Even say that out to me that he is very dissappointed in me for not fullfilling his wish and yet he even have the guts to bullshit infront of me saying that my step-mum(old fucking witch) wants to give me golds of accessorries as a wedding gift but will not attend my wedding. I HATE THIS KIND OF BULLSHITTER that BULLSHITS BLINDLY infront of me. I cant say this out to anybody cus everyone will say that im wrong at all side. But does anyone of u understand how i feel? and do u guys know the feeling of being rejected and being an orphan once again? think again, and tell me.
thats all i wanna talk about for today. take care all and happy chinese new year to all chineses out there!

Jingle Bells

2008-12-13T22:09:00.000+08:00

Christmas Mood

2008-12-05T17:35:00.005+08:00

Finally!!!!!!! Done and selected a few skins played around with css/html/java....damn! its been ages have not revise all those shit already. Somemore i still need to edit my previous posts font colours in order to match the background... >.<""

Sometimes can get into my nerves when the programming codes are not running properly. So, hey! at last, its up n running properly at least on most of my browsers here tho. haaaaaa.....comments are welcome! come come.... Don blame me can??? cus Christmas is most important event ever as a self christian. ha!

Boringlycious

2008-11-24T15:02:00.007+08:00

heyLOOOOOOOOO!!!! Just done washing my clothes! broke a record, i wash it with my own bare hands! mopped the floor! fix up the newly bought lcd tv. bought tickets back to see my lovely darling!!! cant wait!!! =)))

Im off to watch some dvds n eat my FIRST MEAL today! HA!

bye for now! *toodles*

chiaos!! :D

btw, Merry Christmas in advance 2u guys. Don like that la, im on christmas mood wad...haha!

The Days

2008-11-17T14:09:00.014+08:00

Finally, i get to get online. Has been quite busy with few appointments & functions going on tho. Anyways, i get to snap quite a few photos for u guys to see... :)

This are the casts for the concert of "Christmas Wish"

Above pic is Ms. Saedah. She is an Electone Teacher in Yamaha School. This is what i will be doing later tonight. Train d singers & actors by piano.

Above pic: Cooked by my aunt.Durian Kueh. its a delicacy in my hometown back in Kuching

At MRT station. waiting for my friend, Siu Ting. Heading to Bugis Street.

Bugis Junction

Me & Siu Ting

Tryin out the Vegetarian Food.

We are lost tho. haha!

Merry Christmas 2u

ren san ren hai = human mountain human sea

My aunt is not smiling.

2nd shot. Told her to smile. tada! haha!

After cam-whoring. met with siu ting again as she told me that theres a pre-cooking session going on.

So many lao yeeeeessss...

Its quite common to c bikes like that in this country tho. i dunno the name of this vehicle. ask HIM. he knows.

wabbit!!!! sooo cute!!! the black one is call HARE. its a type of wabbit which the species is slightly bigger a lil.

i find this interesting tho.

Above pic taken today. its flooded here. i gotta walk thru the water. don believe me?

There. im all wet. believe now? From now on, i will get an umbrella & carry it with me all the time. geeezzz....

Positive Karma

2008-11-09T23:00:00.005+08:00

Dear fellow readers....u guys will be wondering why i have not been blogging for so long right? Well, I have been pretty busy with sorting out and re-arrange my life & thinking over.

There has been quite a few upsetting moments between me n my love. I always thought that he is very inconsiderate about my feelings n not respecting my decisions. Well, guess what guys, I am delibrately wrong!!! I have been a selfish, self-centered mugger, a negative thinker sort of a way, a very stubborn & naive way of sorting things out emotionally which is REALLY REALLY BAD. Since when i realised this?

Well, im now in a new place which i really hate most before. After a few challenges and obstacles happened to me i realised that who am i to judge to like a place or not so I need to face this fear my own. First, im sorta alone here without my dear helping n guiding me all the way like he used to. I have to faced all the challenges alone n analyse what has gone wrong in my so called "path life".

Yesterday, i met my ex-college mate, Siu Ting at a mrt station which i gotta walk for 15 mins or so to reach the nearest station to meet her by carrying huge load of bag consisting of my laptop, wallet, notebook, etc etc.....Anyhow, when i meet up with my friend, i felt that she has a certain glow within her that makes me feel that im not alone...someone who i can still go out with..someone who can really help me when i need her....So, i stayed quiet....cus i felt confused n difficult inside me...

During the nite, she brought me to a place for her prayer where her relatives n friends were there attended to me with full of warmth & generous smile...instantly i felt like tears rolling down my cheeks...but i hold back..During their preaching, they taught us how to think positively and face life with a smile. Its nothing difficult about it, its only whether you want that to happen to urself or not. Other than that, there has been preaching on positive energy and positive karma which will happen to us if we think stuff differently. From there, i have re-analyse what my love has been trying to tell me....he has been showing my a lot of care and a lot of love...he worries about my confused path and worries every bit of me. I felt like hugging him now n telling him that im sincerely sorry for argueing with him and that i want to promise him that i want to stay happy wherever im and face life in a positive way. If i cant survive in this place, i will never get to survive other places. M i right?

You know what guys, i felt alot more happier since last nite until now...cus i received a few good moments yesterday and today which i believe that is part of positive karma. I have always been a sinner ever since, and alot of bad stuff have had happen to me ever then which made me into a total Bitch. Did u guys noticed that i have not been saying the F word in here? I want to keep this position straight til future. I want to keep this promise for the sake of myself & for my love ones.

P/S: If i ever said anything with the F word or having a bad temper, please don blame me. cus im just only a regular human with flesh & blood who still has their own down moments...hehehe.... btw, i would like to shout out to my DARLING THAT I LOVE U SOOOO MUCH !! For the past, present & the future!!!! miss u loads.

Interesting n Fun

2008-10-22T14:21:00.007+08:00

yo Dawg! im back in da hood..lol ! i just got back from motoGP in Sepang, KL few days ago...the race was awesome! but yet the weather was super fudging HOT!!
I will upload some photos n videos during the race soon..not today..but soon :)
Below are just some interesting photos that i have just done doing it online. haha! enjoy...

Anyways, I have been wondering about Life. Have u guys ever wonder whats life all about in human cycle? Human born, live, sick, old, die...why does it have to be on all living things? Any definitions to it?

This is what i found on the net. its quite interesting tho.

Life is a journey

A journey of time

Where a heart needs another

To give it a shine

We're all on a journey

With two paths to takeOne that is right

And the one that can break

With many a set back

We'll find hard to bear

It's love and true friendship

That will help us to care

For a heart that is lonely

Can fill up with strainLike a plant that can wither

Without sun and rain

So together when sharing

Surely we'll findit's the treasure of life

That can give peace of mind

by - Olive Walters -

me APPEAR IN YOUTUBE!!

2008-10-01T16:14:00.005+08:00

OH MY FUCKIN' GOD !! I cant believe im doin' this shit!!!
thanks to u guys for pestering me to do what is illegal in my list !!
I just cant help with ppl that played double dared with me!! i HATE THAT!!

I CANT BELIEVE I POSTED A VIDEO OF MYSELF in youtube. I cant help laughing my ass off and feeling goosebumps all over my body by listening n watching myself being so damn funny & lame in video. hahahaha!! WTF !!!

by the way, i deleted off some stupid & random comments which "anonymous" human that left in here. so what if i don approve it. u don like it, fuck off !
once again, thanks for watching my stupid & lame video!

Photos

2008-09-25T10:55:00.006+08:00

Celebratin' Danny's birthday in TGI Friday.

Gift from Jess Low. Thank YOU VELI MUCHIEEE!!!

Left to Right : Jess Low, Pei Si, Me

The cameraman was like " do something funny.." n the next thing i did was THIS! LOL!!
Below are some random photos taken recently. just being bored. enjoy.hhaha! cheers!!

CAMERA TAKE 1 !!

TAKE 2 !!

TAKE 3 !!

TAKE 4 !!

TAKE 5 !!

THIS IS ME.... LOL !!

UPCLOSE of me...

Wedding in Kuala Lumpur

2008-09-17T14:04:00.016+08:00

heyLooooooo everybody!!! IMA is back in da hood after a few weddingsssss....which i ended up sick. well, im all fine now except my darling....i don wanna say more on that. cus when he is sick, he still eat food that makes him never get well. nagged at him tho. but never listen as if im invincible. wtf.

This post is about a good friend of his is married. her name is Tiffany.

Reached KL Sunway Pyramid in noon.

was pretty hungry. ended up in some Teochew Restaurant.

Tea

its at the back of every seat

hello..??? where is the food that i ordered??

Grumpy face. i was super hungry lor.... =.=""

Some spare parts which HE ordered. i only take the pig's blood.

Teochew blood = Teochew food= My dad's root = ME!!

understand the above simple equation? =p

i LURVVVVVYYYY spring rolls

never fails to order veg. lol

yes. that is HE im talking about. my cute dearrrr...haha! look at his hungry face that seems to say :" please don snap photos when im eating." haha!!

Dessert. manggo pudding with frog eggs. haha! joking. its not real frog eggs. its sago. i called it frog eggs cus it looks like it tho.

Colourful desserts never fails to capture my heart. haha!

reached SAUJANA HOTEL where the wedding event took place. our room was reserved by the bride n was paid by her. THANK YOU VERY MUCH TIFFANY!

Lobby

Lobby part 2

Yes. im fat. thank you very much.

This is Joni. the funny guy that love to pose for photo shootings. what a poser!

Congratulations!!

look at my SOHAI face. wtf! O.o lousy photographer donnoe how to snap photos! btw, SOHAI means idiotic look

Carrot leg. haha! this super high heel is killin' my feet.

aaahhh...this is what i call COMFY!! i HEART sandals =D

Billabong! LOVE IT! my darling paid for it!! i wanted to pay wan..
reallyyy wan ..but he want to use card worr...then want to pay him back by cash..he no want worr....haha! super happy lor!! it cost $74 in Sunway Pyramid. and below billabong beg too that cost $140.if not mistaken la....total of both stuff is $214 plus plus ..

this is the beg that i mentioned above lor...sui bo?? (Except the mobile phone begs)....

junkies inside.

Wedding in Jakarta

2008-09-11T14:10:00.017+08:00

Who has been to Jakarta before? its really a very nasty environment due to air polution (i have sinus which means nose allergy, when i cleaned it n blow it out, dark red or more to black colour kinda of phlames came out, i got shocked i thought i have nose cancer or something. lol ) and traffic jam for hours whereby ur destination can only take 10 mins or so.

However, this will be the last time i will ever be in Jakarta. for me, Bali is sooo much more better and cleaner.

So, i was in Jakarta for 5 days to attend my bf's ex uni mate, a good pal of his.

Below are the pictures...enjoy...

4 Millions! im a damn millionaire. its only rupiah... *dreams splattered*

Welcome to Indonesia at 8.40pm

Peace sign from dear telling u guys that Jakarta has MCD too.

reached at some place "i don-know-where"

Donuts & Co.

reached hotel around past midnite. i have to emphasize on this: 3 PERSON SHARING 1 ROOM. LOOK AT THE SINGLE BED. can u imagine?

Staying at AMARIS HOTEL

(click on the link above to view the hotel's gallery)

2nd day.

this shopping mall only exclusively for the rich n richesness ppl to shop.

Very impressive shopping indoor

ya. he & his psp. stuck with him all the time during this trip. wtf.

Scallops.

This meal is the most exp. meal ever!! after conversion, its like $500 bucks.
The foods all come once u seat down, only touch what u want to eat or else u will be charged !!

3rd day.
medium class shopping mall. suits me of course. but ended up buying nth. wtf.

met with cousin "complicated family roots" while waiting for him to finish his shopping.

Then he brought us to this place for lunch.

a very unique place indeed.

i ordered this.

Night events. all getting themselves ready lookin good n pwetty!! :))

my darling is acting cute. i suppose so.

oh! oh! i love the cake!!! its call CUPCAKES!

chefs bein' busy cookin

Here comes the bride & the groom
tada!!! arent they a perfect match? ;)

*starts to dream about her own* *slaps*wake up gracie!!*

CUPCAKES!!

alcohol counter. drink it up girls!

The business lounge. waitin for the groom.

30 mins later. still waitin'. finally!! he is here!!

the next day. catching a flight back home.

Only For the Human Souls

2008-09-02T09:41:00.006+08:00

Being yourself is the easy bit, but being happy is difficult. They are similar but the results are massively different.

Here are some steps that might help you :-

1 ) Be Yourself! This means doing what you want, achieving your goals not living up to others expectations because this is your life. It's just tuning out the little voice that says "What will so-and-so think."

2 ) Accept and forget. Write down all your flaws everything you don't like about yourself. Divide them into three columns: worth worrying about, who cares? and why is it even on this list? Rip them all up. This is not about changing yourself. This is being yourself and loving yourself for it.

3 ) Eliminate! Identify places or people or things that make you feel uncomfortable with yourself. Eliminate this stuff from your schedule. You have no time for people who don't accept you.

4 ) Forget others' opinions. If you feel fat because someone said you were they were probably covering up for their own insecurity problem. Feel superior, take the high road and forget.

5 ) Learn to forgive. Once your self-esteem is booming and confidence glowing I bet at least one person will be sorry. Forgive and forget. Everyone makes mistakes. You did by listening to them.

Apart from those above, you can also try to:-

:: Listen to Christina Aguilera's 'Beautiful' and other mood boosting songs.

:: If you're forgiving someone make sure their apology is sincere. Mistakes happen but people should learn from them. Forgive once but never twice.

:: Try helping others. There is nothing like helping someone else to help improve your self confidence.

::Do something that you want to do, or like, every day. Whether it be listening to the song that you love, or dancing in your underwear in your bedroom, it doesn't matter. Just do it and forget about other people. Enjoy the moment of being free, and carry that with you for the rest of the day.

:: It's your life; so live it how you want to! But be aware of what you are doing.

Warnings !!
There are people who are just plain mean spirited. They tend to be jealous of kind hearted, friendly, and/or happy people. Stay away from them as much as possible.

Good luck on your journey to joy!

Whoring Weekends

2008-08-31T12:29:00.013+08:00

Happy MALAYSIA'S 51ST INDEPENDENCE DAY to all Malaysians Out there!!

*hugs!* *kisses* *clap legs n hands*

WTF! whats so good about it anyway? its just some lame old same shit happen every year...i don mean to procastinate this, cus this is the fact =D

anyways guys....how many of u like / hate cockroaches? For me, i DESPISE it!!! those tingling 6 or 8 legged freaks, is it 8?? or 10?? doesnt matter, its still cockroaches to me with those 2 long ugly tentacles....ewwwww.....it just gave me the goosebumps..

Last Friday, i just killed the biggest one in my life cus b4 then, i don get to kill it with my own hands...cus its hardly be found in my house..haha! wtf! this time, this freak suddenly appear in a place somewhere "which-i don-name-it-out" want to know how i killed it? below are the photos:-

First weapon: Mr. Muscle!

2nd Weapon: H2o Aerosol: i sprayed this cus i saw the legs still moving..

whalla! Die you mr. cock! die!!!!

Cam Whoring Sessions:-

hahaha! lame~~~

wanna share twisties with me?

going crazy. haha!

2008-08-18T16:28:00.005+08:00

My dad just called me like twice and ask me to stop swearing...oh well, sorry dad...i cant help saying WHAT THE FUCK all the time..cus this is my trademark tho...its a way of saying something with an exclamation mark! like this one, i miss my dear very much...cus he has been away from me for quite sometime already. and he has been a total asshole. hahaha! jokes dad.

love ya all ! haha ! muaxx!!

Gracie's Art

2008-08-15T21:38:00.009+08:00

heyyLooooooooooooo.................... since i have nothing better to do now at nite..furthermore, im BLARDY bored..not lookin forward for this weekend which is so predictable for me..hopefully "someone" wil do smth about it..hahaha!! blaaaaaaaaaaaahhhhh......ignore my rubbishness..So, i have created my own personal picasso....hope u guys like it... cheers! =D

FunkTastic Life

2008-08-11T14:50:00.013+08:00

well well........recent days are going smooth for me tho....anyhow, i was wonderin' what the fuck happens to me about updating my blog. haha! so, im gonna post something today which i don find it meaningful at all. it will be just some random whore photos of me n other whatever stuff i can find in my camera =)
oh yea, my reply to mr. big DADDY D in UK in my previous post : the daddy meant was my own daddy. LOL!! pardon me..haha!

oh hell...i will just post some photos now :) cheers everyone n enjoy...

Imperfect make up. still learnin'

That is the most creepiest smile i have ever seen.

This is more like it =)

Sick of looking at my crazy jumping photos? LOL!!!

well, enjoy the food below which I HAVE TASTED LATELY (more to come)

SO!!! Feelin' hungry already??? no? yes? cus i know i DO!

Look at those omega 3..my gawd...

This sticky rice was awesome which my honey bought for me. damn good i tell ya!

There will be more upcoming delicious food that i cant wait to pop into my mouth. This idea just came into my mind recently on snapping photos of whatever nice food that im gonna eat. Thats all for today.

have a nice day everyone!

Topsy Turvy Moments

2008-07-31T08:58:00.004+08:00

Dear Diary July 13 2008,

I don know who to talk to about my feelings. In this new place for almost 2 months already. sigh...I m very worried about my dear who has been moody and down for the past 16 days, tried to be there n talk to him (phone) due to distance, tried to ignore all his temper just to make him feel better, but it doesnt seem to work at all furthermore, we ended up quarell most of the time, i feel very hurt.

I know that i have taken most of the good things in life and that when shit happens to him i have to take it as well. I did what my dear told me to do...and i really really wish we can be together til the day we die.....But its been 16 days now, Its not that i want to complaint, in my mind i thought to myself that its because he is pressured during his work and that he felt lonely because his close friend has already moved to a new place. But the things he said really cut thru me like a sharpen knife last nite. My dear don seem to get it. I just felt so hopeless, i don know what to do.
Can my guardian angel give me a sign? i don want this to continue anymore...

I had my fever last week for 4 days....nobody knows about it...i didnt want to let him know cus i don want him to be worried of me and that i don want him to get mad at me which it hurts so bad....anyways, im all fine now....

Dad, I tried to call you cus you are the only person that i can talk to but your phone was unable to reach. DADDY!! WHERE ARE YOU??? HOW COME UR NOT WITH ME WHEN I NEEDED YOU???? if ur reading this, im in pain....very pain....and confused....the only thing left now is this personal blog of mine...its still not enough, cus its still hidden deep inside me which were never let out to be heard...

By the way, lately im seeing shadows here n there...swinging pass...is it because of my stupid mind playing tricks or whatsoever??? im scared...no longer the strong bitch who she used to be....

Oh well.......Im very tired now....and eyes are swollen....have not been sleepin quite well these few days...thinking of how to cheer him up and sort things out..i miss his laughter and smiles....

I gotta go now...prepare myself for work...

Byatch is reborn!

2008-07-14T17:37:00.013+08:00

AAAARRGGGGHHHHHHHH!!!!

i have the tendency of lacking in updating my blog recently...and my honey was like "ur blog not updated. when r u gonna update ur blog" bla bla bla...haha! so, this time i update my birthday event which falls on 9th July. That was just few days ago. anyhow, below are some photos taken. end of this entry, there wil be a link which access to more photos. Its kinda stress uploading photos in here due to low connection, stuck up net traffic...etc etc...

Haagen Dazz cake which cost like $230?!?!?

Yeh..thats my 13 years bitch..came all the way together just to celebrate this special day with me. bloody touchy..hehe...how can i not love this girl? =D

wishin that......

Night party with love ones and close friends :)

Left:Jackson, Sam, Bitch ahaha

This guy is Alvin. Nice young lad..hehe...

Alvin n bitch again. lala...

Hometown friends that flew together all the way to Penang.

stupid pose... :-s

yess...bitch is older again...damnit!

oh...how sweet...wtf..haha!

Pose 1

Theres this bitch(alvin) told me to give him a 3 cute pose. WHICH IS BLOODY IMPOSSIBLE. look at pose 1 :s

Pose 2.
failed to be cute.

Pose 3.

FUCK! bloody ugly.

Me with Jeslyn aka big sister

Left to Right : bitch, jeslyn & Christy

Left to Right: Howard (amature bitch), bitch, Jeslyn & Christy

Left to Right : Kelvin, ???, Sam

Left to Right: Christy, Jeslyn, bitch, Kelvin, Alvin, Howard(amature bitch)

PHEWWWWWWWWWW..........Thats all for this post...for more photos of my birthday, please click here.

thanks for viewing.

FINALLY !!

2008-06-10T11:38:00.005+08:00

Apologies to all my readers....i know i know...i have friends n readers asking me "eh, bitch y din update ur blog? " ur blog long time din update d" bla...bla...bla....yes yes guys...i promised u guys that i wil update whatever shit it is in my blog....i have TONSSSS of photos..kinda lazy 2 upload and arrange it in here now...so, all i gotta can give u guys is links which u guys can access to all my photos..HAPPY?? so, don bug me anymore!

ok. cut the crap. below are the links to access to my photos albums...happy viewing!

My Hometown

2008-05-07T12:27:00.019+08:00

Recently, im feeling damn excited thinking of going back to my hometown...yay! hhaha!
counting down from today onwards is 13 more days to go...SO! i will just upload some photos where u guys get to know and have a lil' picture of how it looks like...hehe....

First of all, i would like to start off with the food where I CANT GET IT ANYWHERE ELSE...

Sarawak Laksa(above)

Kuching KoLo Mee (above)

Chicken Rice (above)

Kueh Chap

Char Siu

Kaya & Toast its another version of Old Town. serving same kinds of food as Old Town.

Kuching's Mamak stall.

There are more food that im craving off...kind lazy to post up more..haha..After this, let me show u how our airport looks like...its quite new...just 1 year + old...yeh..i know..its kinda orangy lighting...cus thats how it looks like...trying 2 make the environment cossy i perhaps?

Kuching International Airport

We love this bird very much. We love it so much that, we call Sarawak the 'Land of the Hornbills'. That is why you can see images of this bird everywhere in Kuching.
We are so proud of our bird, we even erected a giant bird right in the middle of the BDC roundabout.
When you come in from the airport to town, the first thing you see is our bird.

Kuching WaterFront. It stretches out roughly 2km :)

Night view of WaterFront

City of Cats. well, honestly speaking, u will find more stray dogs instead of cats tho =)

City. night view.

There are somemore photos la....i lazy 2 upload the rest d....promised to upload more of it when i get back there.

i love my hometown :)

Q&A (part 2)

2008-05-07T11:25:00.005+08:00

gosh! somemore questions.....

20) Hi, this is Ganesh, how heavy and how tall are u?
: im FAT & Short for you. still wanna talk 2 me? =)

21) you belive in karma?
: yaya. i do. NEXT.

22) Do you have a boyfriend at the moment?
: yes. i have. so fuck off! LOL!!!

23) Hi Gracie, im Joy from Thailand, are u chinese or mix? cus u look cute n pretty.
: first of all, i would like to thank you for the compliments. 2ndly, yes, im mix. mix with what? i dunno....too complicated roots.

24) what is your favourite colour?
: Blue

25) You look Great! do u have any slimming programmes or tips for me? im Valerie from Boston. Age 17. : well, so far i only posted some tips here & here.

26) Hi Gracie, im Carrie from LA, you have such a cute blog. I m very curious of your whereabouts in Malaysia. What kind of language do you speak?
: Hi Carrie. Thanks for writing in. Malaysia is a multi races country, which is kinda suck tho. anyways, speaking of language, well, we have our local language call Bahasa Malaysia (im suck in this), english(obviously), chinese (so so 4 me), hakka, teochew, fochow, hokkien, native language(4get it, i dun understand their language). so yeah..thats all..haha..lazy 2 explain more :P

27) what is your favourite cartoon?
: Anything from Disney =D

28) What kinda car u drive in your life?
: why? are u checking out on me? fat chance!!!

END OF QUESTIONS !! Please do not send me anymore requests.

Thank You~~

Q & A !!!

2008-05-06T12:10:00.007+08:00

Below are the questions that i have received from my email..mostly are my blog readers....so, hope you guys are satisfied with the answers that i gave =p

1 ) Who are you?
: im Gracie aka Funkster aka bitch aka Sotong.

2) How old?
: 22 this year. ok fine. 21+++ cus birthday is in July. so fuck that.

3) Why do u talk like a bitch?
: Cus im a Bitch?!?! (retard question)

4) What are u doing rite now?
: Working while answering questions from my so-called "loyal readers?"

5) What company are u working at?
: why do u bother? u wanna stalk me? or procastinate?

6) Describe urself in 1 word
: BITCH

7) Are you a problematic species?
: OH YES IM ! =D

8) Do you camwhore?
: like i have a choice? of course i do camwhore, view here, here, the rest u go thru my blog urself.

9) Which country have u visited so far?
: China, UK, Aussie, Hong Kong, LA, Thailand, blabla...cant remember d...

10) Are you a sick killer?
: ARE YOU A WEIRDO asking SICK QUESTIONS? oh yessss...i DO KILL ppl. im a very dangerous bitch. im so gonna kill u tonite >=)

11) Have you heard of KennySia.com?
: Oh yes..im a loyal reader of his. hahaha!

12) Are you married already?
: errr....lets get this straight...im 21++ coming 22, with a bitchy mouth...do i sound like im married already???

13) I do seem to see that put on make up. What product are u using?
: for once, i DON do make up on normal days. i only put it on during clubbings. Honestly, i know its quite a shame as a girl i don know shit about make ups. So what? i don give a shit anyway. haha!

14) what is your favourite food?
: i don really specify any food as a favourite. As long as the food taste good (for me)

15) Hi, My name is Zheng. Iam from chiNa. You tried dOG meAta befoh? it is delicious.
: FIRST OF ALL, I HATE U DOWN TO HELL! HOW COULD U EAT A DOG ?!?!?! ARE U INSANE IN THE NUTS?!?! YOU HAVE ASKED THE WRONG QUESTION TO THE WRONG PERSON! IM A DOG LOVER!! I HAVE 2 GERMAN SHEPHARDS AND 1 SHORT LEGGED DOG!! I LOVE THEM SOOO FUCKING MUCH!!!! PLEASE COME TO MALAYSIA AND FIND ME, I WOULD LIKE TO KILL U N EAT U JUST LIKE HOW U EAT THOSE POOR LITTLE HELPLESS DOGS. CURSE U!!! FUCK OFF!! and by the way, go to english school will ya? your english grammar and spelling is so pathetic.

16) At what age you start to curse and swear?
: At d age of WHERE-I-SHOULD-LEARN-HOW-TO-CURSE-AND-SWEAR =)

17) Racist?
: Honestly, YES. im a racist. So? don like it? get a life =)

18) What is Nuffnang at the right panel of your blog?
: You can visit Nuffnang website at : http://www.nuffnang.com/

18) What do u think of human rights?
: I have always been a strong believer in human rights. Cus nobody have the right to tell the other human to do what they think is right. Advice is acceptable from other party but with force in doing things that the human is not comfortable in, fuck it. I talk like this, cus im a rebelious species since the day i was born. i Do things my way.

19) Got canned before?
: Yes. cus im a naughty lil brat that deserve cannings =)

PHEW!!! thank God its over. haha! well, its kinda fun receiving all sorts of weird questions from random readers..hehehe....hope to hear from all of u again..any further questions that you would like to know, you can email me at : phunktastic86@hotmail.com

Thank You~~

Memories

2008-05-06T11:13:00.005+08:00

This Page is for you all to share your own stories of heartbreak. Whether you were with someone for 3 weeks or 3 years, it does not matter. You felt some sort of loss. If you feel comfortable sharing your story with others, please email me at phunktastic86@hotmail.com as always you can request your stories to be completely anonymous. Below are some stories that i received from my readers....its good to let it out....

The purpose is to retain the heart felt broken moments for those who wished to let it out without any fear....
Oh well, let it be bygones as long as there is fate and destiny among between ur "PAST" love ones. What comes around, Goes around.

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I lived with my boyfriend for about one year. We had been together for about two years prior to that. We had sporadically talked about the future, but nothing to serious.
We were both trying to figure out our careers and we knew we loved each other so we figured the future would happen when it happens, at least I thought we loved each other.
I came home early one day from work and thought I would cook him a special dinner.
I walked in and found him making out with a girl on our couch. He tried to play if off like it was nothing. The sad thing is, I went to counseling with him, he said he would never do it again that it was a mistake and he loved me. Six months later a friend of mine spotted him with a different girl. I got visual confirmation with my own eyes.
I left him, it was the hardest thing I have ever done. We were together almost four years and he made me feel like it meant nothing to him.
I was devestated and he acted like an ass and ran around town partying and sleeping with a bunch of other girls (from what I have heard). I am still keeping my heart open to find a guy that will treat me right, people say there are plenty of fish in the sea. It is a big sea out there and I have not found to many fish I would want to spend my days swimming with.

-submitted from Alexandra in Reno-

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My ex-girl and I were together for six months before she told me she did not want to be with me anymore. I was hurting bad for awhile there. Everyone tells you how to be, or try to be "in" a relationship, but no one wants to talk about how to be out of one or how to deal with the pain. I got to give you props man for this site. It takes a lot of balls to put yourself out there. As a guy I appreciate hearing how another guy felt going through this. It helps cuz I thought I was just being a bi*&% feeling sad.

-submitted from Jacob in Madison-

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Dear Funkster,

I am from Belgium 31 years old, and I have been very heartbroken myself. I am very shy, and did not have much relationships in my life. But I was trying my luck on a dating site in July 2006.

One day this beautiful girl K winked at me. She was from Texas and because her father is in the military, she had to move a lot in her life and also has been stationed in Europe.
I was scared about starting a relation with her because I had no idea how this long distance would work and also she was 18 at the time and we had a significant age difference. Nevertheless, we started writing each other and we seemed to have everything in common.
It was sooo wonderful like in a fairy tale. Soon, next to writing each other and sending each other songs, we started chatting. Almost everyday we chatted for hours even if that meant I had to get up at night or very early in the morning.

Later on we used the webcam, called each other sometimes and we fell in love head over heels. I loved her soo incredibly much that I had to visit her. Her parents invited me to visit for christmas. So I flew over the Atlantic and spend a whole month with her and her family.

I have been walking on clouds the whole time, it was soo amazing. We loved each other so much, so much that she wanted to leave everything behind and come with me to Europe. Of course her parents warned her that she would better continue at college and get a degree first. I agreed on that, because if ever something would happen to me, it's better to have a diploma in this world.We agreed she would visit me that summer.

She has been sick and skipped that semester at college, and I went back home and worked very hard renovating my farm that I just had bought for when she would come and visit me. There came some bad news from college. In order to remain signed up she had to do this summer course. So our visit had to be postponed until this past Christmas.The long distance relationship was very hard on us, especially because of all the work she had, she wasn't online anymore everyday. She also went visiting her grandparents that summer who live in PA, so I didn't hear from her very much, just some mails.

I kept writing her every day. most of the time by email but also by regular mail. We never had arguments, though because we didn't chat everyday anymore, if felt we were growing apart again. I panicked and thought how I could save our relationship. I started looking for a new job, that needed me to go overseas. When I told her that half way September, she soon broke up with me, telling that it was not fair for me to be waiting so long for her to graduate, and that I deserved to live my life. I didn't want that, I wanted to remain a couple. I cried and wrote so many letters telling how much I love her. She said she had been crying so hard as well. and she asked me to watch the movie "Splendor in the Grass", that I would understand.About a month later, I discovered she was chatting it up with a Dentist from Norway. He is close to my age as well. I did about everything I could to convince her to come back to me. But T from Norway visited her for a weekend in November. and this Christmas she went visiting him in Norway. I only know bits and pieces from what is going on there, but I know that he asked her to marry him the second week they were together. They are engaged now.I was so devastated. I have been patient for almost a year and see everything we had going to waste in a few months time. I couldn't function anymore and ran off at work. Drove to my home, got my dog and went to my parents house. When I walked in I fell down crying. My parents catched me and putted me on the couch. I completely collapsed and never have had more pain in my chest than those days, between Christmas and New year. It's even the first time that I saw my father crying as well. I was dragging my whole family in it. I spend most of my time in bed those vacation days. It was only when I started looking at protestant services that I gained some hope and courage again.I have to let her go, but it is soo hard. She is going to get married soon and she will give up college and is moving to Norway.People say I have to move on and go out meet new people etc. etc... but I just don't feel like it, I rather stay home, but than again keep worrying about her, if she would be alright, if she isn't making a big mistake. It's so hard, but there is nothing that I can do about it. I was so looking forward to seeing her again at Christmas.The most beautiful fairy tale has turned into the worst nightmare for me. Every day is a struggle to move on, but everyday it gets better.It's so hard especially because there seem to be no reasons why she left me, and she wrote me several times afterwards that she might be making the biggest mistake in her life, but that she feels more compatible with T because she is in medicine too.There are also no bad things about her that I can think of, which makes it impossible for me to get angry and move on. I care so much for her.It's even difficult to get a descent night of sleep. I am so restless. My whole world collapsed, I am so lost.

-Submitted by Anonymous from Belgium-

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So Far, i only received 3. Shit happens, so just let it be. Cus life is NEVER PERFECT. learn thru the hard way and u will succeed. No One has the right to tell u what to do or teach u what you SHOULD do to lead ur life...cus life is urs, not theirs...do what u think is right for urself...in upcoming post, i will post about questions and answers of those who sent in their request via emails.

cheers mates!

Weird

2008-04-29T14:53:00.002+08:00

Do you guys have any idea wut d above picture is trying to say?? i got this photo thru a good friend of mine.....
i read it many times twisting the grammar words here n there, in d end, i still don quite geddit...
can anyone tell me wuts that it????

How to increase $$$

2008-04-22T17:53:00.003+08:00

Nowadays, money is needed in order to survive in this real damn world. without "it$$$" its hard to survive...anyways, just a short lame joke for those who are peekin on my blog...

How to ask your Boss for a salary increase..?

One day you send a letter to your boss asking for an increase in your salary!

Dear Bo$$

In thi $ life, we all need $ ome thing mo$ t de$ perately. I think you $ hould be under$ tanding of the need $ of u $ worker $ who have given $ o much $upport including $ weat and $ervice to your company . I am $ ure you will gue$$ what I mean and re $pond $ oon.

Your$ $incerely,

The next day, you received this letter of reply :

Oh my dear:

I k NOw you have been working very hard.
NOwadays, NO thing much has changed. You must have NOticed that our company is NOt doing NO ticeably well as yet.
NOw the newspaper are saying the world`s leading eco NO mists are NOt sure if the United States may go into a NO ther recession.
After the NOvember presidential elections things may turn bad . I have NO thing more to add NOw. You k NO w what I mean.

Yours truly,
Manager

Oops! He did it again!

2008-04-21T11:55:00.010+08:00

I find this joke fascinating and creative=p

Childern nowadays are neither naif nor innocent...

i call them " young devils" so, apparently i was laughing ma ass off while at work.. LOL!!

The teacher called on James to start things off.

James returned to his seat.The teacher called on Ernie next.

Ernie returned to his seat. Now it was Suzy's turn.

Suzy returned to her seat. Next, the teacher called Jerry to the board.

Jerry returned to his seat.Kim was called to the board.

Kim returned to her seat.

About this time, little Johnny began waving his arm hysterically. Little Johnny was well known for being off center, so the teacher was reluctant to call on him for anything. But as the teacher looked at the picture on the chalkboard, she thought that there was no way that little Johnny could possibly do anything to make this picture dirty. So she called on little Johnny, and he ran to the chalkboard.

The entire class erupted with laughter... the teacher fainted. Little Johnny had done it again.

*claps!! applause!! *

Another Couple Joke

2008-04-16T11:49:00.004+08:00

住口

If your dog is barking at the back door and your wife is yelling at the front door, who do you let in first?

如果你的狗在後門吠，而你的妻子在前門大喊大叫，你會讓那一個先進來？

The Dog of course...at least he ll shut up after you let him in!

當然是狗，至少它進來後會住口。

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三個孩子

A couple had three children. Two of them were bright, smart, and handsome! but the third child was dull, ugly, and backward.

一對夫婦有三個孩子。有兩個特別聰明和英俊，可是第三個孩子卻很醜很笨。

One day the hubby got suspicious and asked, Tell me the truth, dear. Is this third child really mine?

一天，丈夫很懷疑地問： " 坦白說，親愛的，老三真的是我的孩子嗎？

" Yes, dear, replied the wife, but the other two are not.

是的，親愛的。 " 妻子答道： " 可是另外兩個不是。 "

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妻子的三項優點

When a bachelor marries, his wife has three qualities: she is an economist in the kitchen, an aristocrat in the living room and a devil in bed.

一位單身漢新婚時，妻子有三項優點：在廚房她是經濟學者、在客廳她是貴族、在床上她是惡魔。

After a few years, sure enough the three qualities remain, but not in the same order: she is an aristocrat in the kitchen, a devil in the living room and an economist in bed.

若干年後，這三項優點依然存在，可是秩序有點變動：在廚房她是貴族、在客廳她是惡魔、在床上她是經濟學者。

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許願井

A couple came upon a wishing well. The husband leaned over, made a wish and threw in a penny. 一對夫妻來到一座許願井。丈夫靠過去，丟下一個硬幣，許了個願。

The wife decided to make a wish, too. But she leaned over too much, fell into the well, and drowned. The husband was stunned for a while but then smiled and said, It really works!

妻子也打算許個願。可是她靠的太過去，掉下井，被淹死了。丈夫呆了一回，然後笑著說： " 真靈驗。 "

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結婚周年

I asked my wife, Where do you want to go on our anniversary?

我問太太： " 結婚周年紀念，你想去那 ?? ？

" She said, Somewhere I have never been! !

她說： " 那裡都好，只要是我沒去過的地方。

" I told her, How about the kitchen? ??

我說： " 廚房怎麼樣？ "

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快樂時光

During their silver anniversary, a wife reminded her husband, Do you remember when you proposed to me, I was so overwhelmed that I didn t talk for an hour?

在二十五周年紀念時，一位太太提醒她的丈夫： " 你還記得你向我求婚的那天，我被打動得無法說話長達一小時？

" The hubby replied : Yes, honey, that was the happiest hour of my life.

丈夫回答： " 是的，親愛的，那是我一生中最快樂的時光。 "

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手拉手

We always hold hands. If I let go, she shops.

我們時常都手拉手。如果放開，她就會去購物了。

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S.H.I.T

2008-04-08T13:16:00.001+08:00

Have you guys received this kinda mail from ur boss???
well, look below....

*** above image is just a joke...for those who are bored during work...***

HAPPY APRIL FOOL!!

2008-04-01T13:17:00.007+08:00

Have u guys been conned and fooled by someone today?? hehehe...

well, i have fooled this dumbhead by this kinda joke below : -

Dearest friends,
It's my immense pleasure to inform you that I will be getting married soon.
Sorry to inform you in short notice after vacation.
I had my engagement yesterday. The wedding is in 1 day time.
I never expected this to happen so soon, it was all in a hurry.
The card and venue details are attached with this mail.
I would like to invite you personally due to the lack of time I was unable to inform earlier.
I really hope you all can make it. Please do forgive the short notice.
Please view my raw invitation card. I will get it print and send it to u guys soon.

Plus an attachment invitation card below:-

above image is taken from here cus i didnt get to snap my actual text msg.

He was typing n sending it to me.

image above is from dumbhead. thats my reply to him.

For more resources about this april fool joke, u can go to DUMB FLER's blog...as im kinda busy at the moment.....hehehe..

HAPPY APRIL FOOL EVERYONE!!

CHEERS!! =D

Typing Test

2008-03-28T17:58:00.007+08:00

How fast your 10 fingers can run???

Would you like to try the TEST?

below is my result.

Speedtest

Taggy Waggy

2008-03-28T17:17:00.002+08:00

1. At what age do you wish to marry?
: as long as HE would propose to me and that i m ready for it. geddit??

2.If you can turn into anything, what do you wish you can turn into?
: baby (worry-free)

3. What job are u doing now?
: DELL

4.Where is the place that you want to go most?
: NYC

5.If you have one dream to come true, what would it be?
: Financial Free

6.Do you believe in seeing the rainbow after the rain?
: err...do i have to believe it?

7.what are you afraid to lose the most right now?
: dad

8. What cheers you up for the rest of the day?
: the silly ppl around me =p

9.If you meet someone you love, would you confess to him/her?
: no. cus im a girl and i have my own ego too.. LOL!! =p

10.List out three good things of the person who tagged you.
: none.

11. What are the requirements that you wish from your other half?
: if he can improve on his temper =)

12.What type of person do you hate the most?
: dishonesty

13.What would you do if you won a million dollars?
: Do whatever i want & like & LOVE

14.What is your ambition?
: Fairy God Mother *slaps* wake up gracie. wake up *

15.What is the sweetest thing ever happened to you?
: first kiss *hehe*

16. If you have a chance, which part of your character would you like to change?
: stubborness & idiotness.. *toodles*

17. what is your favourite colour?
: BLUE =D

18.What do you think is the most important thing in your life?
: Appreciate what i have rite now :)

19. What phone are you using currently ?
: Nokia N70

20. Do you like being who you are today?
: not 100%. cus im not perfect.

something to think about

2008-03-19T08:59:00.012+08:00

TRUST is a very important factor for all relationships.

When trust isbroken, it is the end of the relationship.

Lack of trust leads to suspicion, suspicion generates anger, anger causes enmity and enmity mayresult in separation.

A telephone operator told me that one day she received a phone call. She answered, "Public Utilities Board." There was silence. She repeated,"PUB." There was still no answer. When she was going to cut off the line, she Heard a lady's voice, "Oh, so this is PUB.Sorry , I got the number from my Husband's pocket but I do not know whose number it is."Without mutual trust, just imagine what will happen to the couple if the telephone operator answered with just "hello" instead of "PUB".

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NO POINTING FINGERS

A man asked his father-in-law, "Many people praised you for a successful marriage. Could you please share with me your secret?"

The father-in-law answered in a smile, "Never criticize your wife for her shortcomings or when she does something wrong. Always bear in mind that because of her shortcomings and weaknesses, she could not find a betterhusband than you."We all look forward to being loved and respected.

Many people are afraid of losing face. Generally, when a person makes a mistake, he would look around to find a scapegoat to point the finger at. This is the start of awar. We should always remember that when we point one finger at a person, the other four fingers are pointing at ourselves.If we forgive the others, others will ignore our mistake too.

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BE PATIENT

This is a true story which happened in the States..

A man came out of hishome to admire his new truck. To his puzzlement, his three-year-old sonwas happily hammering dents into the shiny paint of the truck. The man ran to his son, knocked him away, hammered the little boy's hands into pulp as punishment. When the father calmed down, he rushed his son to thehospital.Although the doctor tried desperately to save the crushed bones, he finally had to amputate the fingers from both the boy's hands. When theboy woke up from the surgery & saw his bandaged stubs, he innocently said," Daddy,I'm sorry about your truck."

Then he asked, "but when are my fingers going to grow back?" The father went home & committedsuicide.Think about this story the next time someone steps on your feet or u wishto take revenge. Think first before u lose your patience with someone u love. Trucks can be repaired..

Broken bones & hurt feelings often can't.Too often we fail to recognize the difference between the person and theperformance. We forget that forgiveness is greater than revenge. People make mistakes. We are allowed to make mistakes. But the actions wetake while in a rage will haunt us forever.

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NO OVERPOWERING

Many relationships fail because one party tries to overpower another,or demands too much. People in love tend to think that love will conquer alland their spouses will change the bad habits after marriage. Actually, this is not the case. There is a Chinese saying which carries the meaning that "It is easier to reshape a mountain or a river than a person'scharacter."It is not easy to change. Thus, having high expectation on changing the spouse character will cause disappointment and unpleasantness.It would be less painful to change ourselves and lower our expectations..

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RIGHT SPEECH

There is a Chinese saying which carries the meaning that "A speech will either prosper or ruin a nation." Many relationships break off because ofwrong speech. When a couple is too close with each other,we always forget mutual respect and courtesy. We may say anything without considering if itwould hurt the other party.

A friend and her millionaire husband visited their construction site. Aworker who wore a helmet saw her and shouted,"Hi, Emily! Remember me? We used to date in the secondary school." On the way home, her millionaire husband teased her, "Luckily you married me.Otherwise you will be the wifeof a construction worker." She answered ,"You should appreciate that you married me. Otherwise, he will be the millionaire and not you."

Frequently exchanging these remarks plants the seed for a badrelationship. It's like a broken egg - cannot be reversed.

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PERSONAL PERCEPTION

Different people have different perception. One man's meat could beanother man's poison. A couple bought a donkey from the market. On the way home,a boy commented, "Very stupid. Why neither of them ride on thedonkey?"Upon hearing that, the husband let the wife ride on the donkey. He walked besides them. Later, an old man saw it and commented, "The husband is the head of family. How can the wife ride on the donkey while thehusband is on foot?" Hearing this, the wife quickly got down and let thehusband ride on the donkey.Further on the way home, they met an old Lady.

She commented, "How can the man ride on the donkey but let the wife walk. He is no gentleman."The husband thus quickly asked the wife to join him on the donkey. Then,they met a young man. He commented, "Poor donkey, how can you hold up the weight of two persons. They are cruel to you."

Hearing that, the husband and wife immediately climbed down from the donkey and carried it on their shoulders.It seems to be the only choice left. Later, on a narrow bridge, the donkey was frightened and struggled. They lost their balance and fell into the river. You can never have everyone praise you, nor will everyone condemn you. Never in the past, not at present, and never will be in the future. Thus, do not be too bothered by others words if our conscience is clear...

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Get paid by surveys!!

2008-03-18T19:10:00.002+08:00

Heya there people !!!

i have something GENUINE and INTERESTING thing to share here with all my readers out there!! =D

im SOOOO damn excited about this thingy that i would like to share with u all now...

have u guys heard about get paid while u do a short survey or reviews? or get paid to click on their ads??

Well, however those are scams its just simply that u have to pay a certain amount first in order to join shit sites..

ok, cut the craps, what im gonna show u guys now is that YOU don have to pay a SINGLE PENNY to get paid by this company. I asure you that in ur mind rite now is thinking " what the fuck! is this bitch telling the truth or just wanna trick us into this kinda shit?"

well, for your information guys that Companies spend Billions of dollars a year trying to convince consumers that their products are the best and to buy their products and services. They achieve this by getting an understanding how people think and shop. Knowing this, companies are willing to pay you for your opinions. Overall your opinion could help the companies to upgrade their products and services. sources can be found here .

So why wait guys?? im not kidding man..cus i just done a short survey by giving some opinions on some webpage n instantly i got $6.00 (USD) and im going 2 continue more on surveys rite now...u guys still feeling doubtful??? no harm in trying anything which don requires a single penny from u rite?? so just check it out guys!! who knows...ur the next millionaire =D

Just visit the following link:-

2008 Resolutions

2008-03-14T18:18:00.024+08:00

i know i know...its like what March now right? so what? i still can plan my resolutions what... =p
I have nothing to blog about and this resolution thingy gave me a sudden urge to write it out....

1) Continue to Love my hippo more n TRY to compromise

2) Get my ass BACK to aussie land

3) Mini Cooper S series

4) Ipod RED COLOUR

5) Earn more money to support myself n my love ones for future

6) Continue my music career (Thanks to Helen for the photo that i requested for her to email me. Bach in F minor back in UK)

7) Be with my daddy always....i miss u alot daddy...

dad, if u happen to read my blog as i know u will..just wanna tell the whole world that ur the greatest dad that i ever have...and..i love u soo much daddy... ='(

8) Puppies like Golden Retriever or Beagles...etc... (no hairy kinds like chihuahua whatever how it is spelled like)

I have photos of my dog back in hometown....

This is Rocky

This is D D...lazing on front house porch..

UPLOSE..hehe...oh! how i love them sooo much!!

9) New York

10) Enjoy life

11) Last but not least, i wanna GO HOME.. ='(

*** Thats all for now....don wanna show more....***

I wanna COMPLAINT !!!

2008-03-07T10:59:00.007+08:00

Lotsa shit people with rude, arrogant, ignorance, LIARS that im dealing with everyday internally & externally. They are REALLY REALLY getting on my nerves n driving me up the wall...

I FUCKING hate it !!!!

i wanna COMPLAINT !!! don care!!!

This is my blog!! i wanna say wuteva i want!!!

AAARRGGGHHHH !!!! ROAAAAAARRRRRRR!!!!!!!!!!!!!

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anyways, currently im listening to Luther Vandross-Dance with my father ...oh oh! i sooo freaking love this song...heeee........at least it relax me abit....and i wanna say i love u babyyyy hippo!!! muax!! muax!!! miss u fucking much!! teheeeeeee!!!

honkers donkers!
cheers mates!!

Want Cheap Stuff?

2008-03-06T15:31:00.003+08:00

You know there are many humans mainly female breeds out there INCLUDING ME who loves bargaining on good n nice stuff which comes in a cheap price. Who doesnt, rite?
No further bullshittin' admit it or not, just read below and learn ur lesson:-

So, can anyone tell me what is the moral of the above image tryin' to tell?

Whatever shit !

2008-03-05T17:31:00.005+08:00

Dear OVERSEAS readers of mine, Malaysia is currently having some election function thingy going on which i don even blardy bother to register for it. I have no comments on political shits n stuffs. Sue me if u want.

NOTE: Funkster does not support any side on political parties. If u felt offended by the image below, please press "ctrl + F4"

T-SHIRTS!!

2008-02-29T17:14:00.006+08:00

Just another random post of one of my crazy t-shirts that taken ages ago...haha!!
cheers!!

2008-02-22T13:25:00.007+08:00

Hi readers, below jokes were sms to my phone from my so-called angmo"baldy buddy" back from UK.
Hey darren, please don sue me for plagarism..hehehehe....

A lil' man goes into a chemist to buy viagra.

He says " I want 6 tablets & can you cut them into quarters for me?

Chemist says " I can cut them for you but a quarter tablet wont give you a full erection."

Old man replies " im 96 years old. I dont have much use for an erection, I just want it to stick out far enough to stop me from pissing on my slipers!! "

p/s: do u guys geddit?????? if no, please leave a comment area n i will revert back to you.

Bill Gates Daughter

2008-02-22T10:28:00.002+08:00

BUSINESS DONE - HOW???
The below conversation is just a joke. Whoever related to Bill Gates, please don sue me...im a poor villiant..hehehe.... =p

Father: I want you to marry a girl of my choice.

Son: “I will choose my own bride!”

Father: “But the girl is Bill Gates’s daughter.”

Son: “Well, in that case…OK”

Next Day
Father approaches Bill Gates.

Father: “I have a husband for your daughter.”

Bill Gates: “But my daughter is too young to marry!”

Father: “But this young man is a vice-president of the World Bank.”

Bill Gates: “Ah, in that case… OK”

Finally Father goes to see the president of the World Bank.

Father: “I have a young man to be recommended as a vice-president. ”

President: “But I already have more vice- presidents than I need!”

Father: “But this young man is Bill Gates’s son-in-law.”

President: “Ah, in that case… OK”

Never Enough & Satisfied

2008-02-18T17:55:00.010+08:00

Have u guys ever thought of WHAT ACTUALLY YOU WANT IN LIFE???

is it TAG HEUER?

Never Ending Cold Hard Cash?

Fancy Car?

High techy notebooks?

Never-ending updated phones

Ipod nanos

or a HOT GUY that ur proud to show off to ur frenz?

or a HOT CHICK ?

Well, most people just wont freaking admit that they are materialistics when this kinda question pops up. From my opinion, we gotta huddle our life with balance. Happiness comes from materials too...im sure EVERY HUMAN being always crave for something in life. for example:-

: a mobile phone that u have been eyeing on

: mp3 player like ipod nano i perhaps?

: the beautiful dress that u have been waiting for the price to drop

: shoes

: high heels

: ps3

: PsP

: computers

: pretty hair cut

etc...etc...as the list goes on...

for me, hehehehee..........there are MANY MANY THINGS i want in life....like the most craving one will be THE RED COLOUR IPOD NANO

2ND Item In my WANTING LIST

Sony Ericsson K810

OR.....

Sony Ericsson K850

3RD Item

Daddy, if u happen 2 read my blog (cus i know u will) PLEASE REMEMBER UR PROMISE(mini cooper) when i get my arse back to kangaroo land... LOL!!!

SO!!! if u wanna be happy, just get wuteva u want...cus LIFE IS SHORT so enjoy it while u can...u will never know wot will happen the next step of ur life....

This post is nothing but just craps just to post something. Geddit???

Happy Nude Year 2 Y'ALL !!!

2008-02-12T09:49:00.024+08:00

G'day MATES!! Sorry for the delays...This post has been in my draft section and i have been tryin tuh upload photos since few days ago but-ta due to a few circumstances that it was delayed. But however, below are some photos of how i spent my CHINESE NEW YEAR 2008 in a place call PEARL ISLAND @ PULAU PENANG.

As a Christianity and a mix blood brat that HARDLY celebrate this wonder yet interesting festive season, i for this year had tasted d sweetness of it.. lol ! i know it doesnt make sense, but what the hell...haha!

So...enjoy peeps~~

The 1st Day

Chinese ppl believed that wearing RED on the 1st day of CNY is auspicious.

As a City girl who never knew wot is village life and surroundings look like...

Chinese ppl has a habit that they gotta gamble during CNY.

I have no idea y...still puzzling here...

LOOK!! SO CUTE!!!

Never seen one man!! :P

This is pineapple... DUH....

This is ladies finger....
My most fav. veg of all..So, this is how they plant it...interesting....

Isnt it peaceful living in a village where greens and birds and beautiful sunsets?

The MOST IMPORTANT THING for chinese ppl is...

~*~* REUNION DINNER oh! i miss my family =( ~*~*

After dinner, ppl will be gather together to listen to singers singing on stage.

Honestly, I don quite enjoy it cus its TOO DAMN noisy..

imagine those 4 BIG POOR SOUND BLASTING SPEAKERS booming infront of u just 1-2 feet away..

damn !!

Yeh..thats me with the boys posing....

THE 2ND DAY

Its a MS-JUST-WOKE-UP face...

THE 3RD DAY

A visit to err....wtf!! i cant remember wot this place name called =S

well, its just some chinese temple...a freaking HOT WEATHER...

went up the stairs all the way...

I-DON-KNOW-HOW-2-READ

Finally, i m HERE at PENANG HILL!!!

Amazing as it may sound. A cooling environment in the hot and dry weather of Penang. Penang Hill or affectingly known by locals as "Bukit Bendara", is one of the only cool places to visit in Penang. A hill with elevation of about 833 m (2723 ft) has proved that it is one of the main attractions not only to the foreigner but also locals.

Entrance fee is just only : RM4.00

heya there peeps!! I will upload more photos in upcoming days...cus im too busy at the moment and HAPPY VALENTINES DAY 2 Y'ALL and to my honey who is with me all the time n i just wanna say i love u sooo much!! muax!!...ciaos man!!

2008-02-05T12:34:00.000+08:00

Cancer Girl: A night at home with a good meal and family all around? Sounds about right to the caring and deeply devoted, Cancer young lady. More emotional than most, she appreciates the nurturing aspects of home and hearth. You can count on her to be a great baby-sitter. For her, baby-sitting is not at all a chore. It's a pleasure since she enjoys getting to spend time with kids.

A true nurturer, she's the mother hen of her group of friends, someone who knows how to take care of both herself and those around her. Like the Crab, the Cancer young lady goes through life with a strong shell around her that is not easily broken. If

necessary, she can retreat into her shell until it's safe to come out. Sometimes, she can be rather moody, refusing to leave the shell and quite literally, being crabby.

In general, though, she is the first to express emotion in any given situation -- the first to laugh and the first to tears. The studious Crab can retain information well thanks to a good memory, something which also makes her an excellent test-taker. Surely, she will bring home many A's to post on the fridge. Even so, college is simply the preliminary round for her - she's most interested in what comes next. Chances are, she'll probably stick pretty close to home.

Libra Boy: The Libra young man is an extremely appearance-conscious fellow. He always hangs around with the "in" crowd, so he can be seen with all the right people.

He is quite a smooth talker, too. He knows how to say all the right things and will compromise to accommodate others. At times he can come across as a bit superficial, as well as lacking any real emotional or physical fire.

His main interests are looking good and acting pleasantly diplomatic as opposed to behaving like a brute or building up brawn. That said, this boy is very good at spending money and enjoys fine clothes and dining.

Where schooling is concerned, he'll want to get into the schools which will make him look as good as he should -- like the Ivy League. And he'll certainly make the grade since Libras are possessed of great intellect. The Ivy League will be right up this young man's alley, a schmoozer's paradise which will prepare him for future ascendancy into the old boy network of his dreams.

Aries Boy: This young man is hard to keep up with, so be forewarned. He's an action Jackson with energy to spare. Those Rams are fiery, indeed.

The Ram is one of the most dynamic characters of the Zodiac. Occasionally his tendency for haste and hurry can get him into trouble.

If he doesn't think things through carefully enough, it can lead to frustration. Life is a competition for the Ram, and he wants to be in the winner's circle each and every time.

The downside is that he might wind up very frustrated, butting his head against a wall from time to time (think of those Ram's horns). Even so, his natural role is that of an athlete: as captain of the football team, snow boarder par excellence, or X-treme sport-er.

The Ram boy can be a bit self-centered at times, fallout from his intense desire to take charge. When presented with a new project or idea, his innate enthusiasm and need for challenge will cause him to jump in right away and lead the way.

He has the ability to reach beyond normal limitations. Confident leader that he is, the Ram boy will either helm a team or club or simply be at the top among his circle of friends. He's likely to look great with a minimum of fuss. The great strength of the Aries chap is in his energy, initiative, and courage. His ability to take a project and go with it is unparalleled. He will certainly be going places.

p/s: So, anyone of u guys out there are very curious of ur love one's character. just drop me a msg in the comment column and i shall get back to u as soon as possible. cheers peeps!

Sleep Walking

2008-02-04T14:55:00.000+08:00

My first sleep walking in year 2008 was 3rd Feb. ha!

I have been a sleep walking since very young of age. Its not a safe thing to do but its beyond my control..The most dangerous sleep walking moment that i had was i was up n ready to go to class and almost drive my car out..but good thing that my parents stopped me.this incident was told by my parents. haha!

Anyways, I just would like to share with you all what is sleep walking is all about. The Contents are extracted from google.com

What is sleepwalking?

~ Sleepwalking is a disorder characterized by walking or other activity while seemingly still asleep.

What are the causes, incidence, and risk factors of sleepwalking?

~ The normal sleep cycle involves distinct stages from light drowsiness to deep sleep. Rapid eye movement (REM) sleep is a different type of sleep, in which the eyes move rapidly and vivid dreaming is most common.

During a night, there will be several cycles of non-REM and REM sleep. Sleep walking (somnambulism) most often occurs during deep non-REM sleep (stage 3 or stage 4 sleep) early in the night. It can occur during REM sleep near morning.
In children, the cause is usually unknown but may be related to fatigue, prior sleep loss, or anxiety. In adults, sleepwalking is usually associated with a disorder of the mind but may also be seen with reactions to drugs and alcohol, and medical conditions such as partial complex seizures. In the elderly, sleepwalking may be a symptom of an organic brain syndrome or REM behavior disorders.

The sleepwalking activity may include simply sitting up and appearing awake while actually asleep, getting up and walking around, or complex activities such as moving furniture, going to the bathroom, dressing and undressing, and similar activities. Some people even drive a car while actually asleep. The episode can be very brief (a few seconds or minutes) or can last for 30 minutes or longer.

One common misconception is that a sleep walker SHOULD NOT be awakened. It is not dangerous to awaken a sleep walker, although it is common for the person to be confused or disoriented for a short time on awakening. Another misconception is that a person cannot be injured when sleep walking. Actually, injuries caused by such things as tripping and loss of balance are common for sleep walkers.
Sleep walking occurs at any age, but it occurs most often in children aged 6 to 12. It may occur in younger children, in adults, or in the elderly, and it appears to run in families.

What are symptoms of sleepwalking?

: eyes open during sleep

: may have blank facial expression

: may sit up and appear awake during sleep

: walking during sleep

: other detailed activity during sleep, any sort

: no recall of the event upon awaking

: confusion, disorientation on awakening

: sleep talking is incomprehensible and non-purposeful

What are the signs and tests for sleepwalking?

~ Usually, no further examination and testing is necessary. If sleepwalking is frequent or persistent, examination to rule out other disorders (such as partial complex seizures) may be appropriate. It may also be appropriate to undergo a psychologic evaluation to determine causes such as excessive anxiety or stress, or medical evaluation to rule out other causes.

What is the treatment for sleepwalking?

~ Usually no specific treatment for sleepwalking is needed. (thats y im never cured. haha!)
Safety measures may be necessary to prevent injury. This may include modifying the environment by moving objects such as electrical cords or furniture to reduce tripping and falling. Stairways may need to be blocked off with a gate.
In some cases, short-acting tranquilizers have been helpful in reducing the incidence of sleepwalking.

How can I prevent sleepwalking?

: Avoid the use of alcohol or central nervous system depressants if prone to sleepwalking.

: Avoid fatigue or insomnia, because this can instigate an episode of sleepwalking.

: Avoid or minimize stress, anxiety, and conflict, which can worsen the condition.

Source: National Institutes of Health (http://www.nih.gov/)

p/s: So! Please do put a big smile on ur face just like what im for today..ha!

smile & cheers mates!!

5 words for Today

2008-01-31T11:38:00.000+08:00

LIFE is FULL of SHITS !!!!

If you are looking for love, would you......

2008-01-30T09:59:00.000+08:00

If you are looking for love, would you recognize it if you found it?

Can you tell the difference between love and infatuation?

Between love and attraction? Between love and sexual desire?

Between love and friendship?

Between sex and intimacy?

Between a good relationship and one that is only pleasurable?

The Meaning of Love offers and explains a definition of love in a way that is interesting, intense, clear, logical, and meaningful. All relationships --love, infatuation, friendship, dating, marriage, family, community, and professional-- involve three key elements:

Emotions --how we feel about each other

Ethics --how good or bad we are for each other

Joys --how much we satisfy or dissatisfy each other

These determine the quality of our relationships; and The Meaning of Love explains how they interrelate, and why attraction --the normally considered most important emotional element and conventional hallmark of love-- is not sufficient to signify a relationship as one of love, no matter how strong or how enduring that attraction may be.

Place where i work.

2008-01-22T19:05:00.000+08:00

I have been working for this company since May 2007 until now and stil counting the days when to get out of HELL. i mean Dell. Whoever knows about the background this company. plz don shoot me or procastinate about this company in my blog.

Thanks for ur co-operation.

DELL XPS M1730

Company's Cafeteria

Company's Cafeteria

Company's Cafeteria

Cubicles

MY Cubicle

MY Cubical 2

cheers!!

English!

2008-01-18T18:45:00.002+08:00

I snapped this photo from a t-shirt.

Enjoy a good laugh…

2008-01-17T14:47:00.000+08:00

A man went on business to China and wanted to buy some gifts for his kids.
He went to a shop and found a nice looking CD player.
Wary of buying inferior goods, he asked the shopkeeper, 'What would happen if this does not work?'
The shopkeeper quietly points to the only sign in English that reads,

'GUARANTEE NO SPOILT'.

Feeling assured, he paid for the CD player and returns to his hotel. He tried to use the CD player after returning to the hotel but it would not even switch on.He quickly return to the shop and asked for a refund or an exchange for another unit. When the shopkeeper refuse to give either, the man points to the sign assuring him of a guarantee.

The shopkeeper then said, 'Brother, you are in China . We read from the right to the left.'

How to wash Jeans correctly!

2008-01-14T16:49:00.000+08:00